Unchanged.

Book 1. Chapter 1.

Unchanged.

Book 1. Chapter 1

ALESSA’S POV

As I remembered, ito yung araw na gagana na yung plano ko... paraan para pakawalan na ang mga taong mahalaga sa akin, ang mga kaibigan ko at ang taong mahal ko..

“Alessa.. Andito na siya..” Sabi ni Mama..

“Mom.. This will be over na today right?” I asked her just to be sure..

“Sure honey, whatever you like.. Goodluck” Sabi niya sabay halik sa noo ko.

As she opened the door, I saw a bloodshot eyed Jake.. Jake John Smith.. The guy I love.. and always will love.

“J-Jake..” I stuttered.

I’m really feeling weak. I don’t like hurting Jake, I don’t like seeing him hurt. Pero kailangan ko ‘tong gawin for everyone.

Lumapit siya sa akin at niyakap ako ng mahigpit. Masakit man dahil sa mga sugat ko sa katawan but eh? This will be the last kaya hahayaan ko na lang.

“Alessa..” He whispered. Halatang-halata sa boses niya na umiiyak siya.

“Jake..” I answered.

“Akala ko ba walang iwanan?” Tanong niya

“Jake.. Ayokong iwanan ka, Ayoko! Pero hindi ko na kaya... Jake please pakawalan mo na ako. Kalimutan mo na ako! Maging masaya ka na..” Sabi ko

“No Alessa! Hinding hindi kita makakalimutan! Pangako ko yan! Ikaw lang ang babaeng minahal ko at patuloy kitang mamahalin hanggang sa araw na mamatay ako. Please Alessa, don’t go.. Please.. I need you!” Sabi niya.. He’s crying harder and I can’t bear it anymore..

I let go of the hug and lay down on my bed.. I closed my eyes.. I’m so damn tired.

“Alessa?! Alessa! Please! Wag pa!” Pakiusap ni Jake.. A tear fell from my eye as I felt his tears on my hand.

“Jake please be strong..” I said as my voice fainted, as I choke up in tears that have been waiting to burst.

“No Alessa! Please.. please! Nagsisisi ako sa mga oras na hindi kita nakasama, sa mga oras na tinrato kita na parang hangin ka lang, sa mga oras na minsan ikinahiya kita.. I should’ve tried to be the best for you Alessa, sana sinamahan kita palagi, nilambing kita pag galit ka.. I’m proud that you’re my Girlfriend Alessa, alam mo yan. For 4 years I have protected you, I have protested to everyone to accept us. For all those times na tiniis ko lahat ng pang-aasar sa akin ng mga kaibigan ko at mga kaibigan mo.. For everytime na tinitiis mo ugali ko.. Alessa mahal kita! Mahal na mahal kita. Please wag mo akong iwanan. Di ba tatanda pa tayo, ikakasal pa tayo, magkakaanak at pamilya pa tayo di ba? Alessa naman.. Please.. wag mo akong iwan please! Alessa!!” Sabi niya.. Ayoko na.. I can stop this while I can.. Pero no. I can do this.

“Jake.. I love you.. please take care of yourself.. always.. I wrote a lot of letters for you to read every day.. I’ll always be by your side Jake.. Palagi akong nasa tabi mo. Goodbye Jake. I love you.” I said..

Then on cue.. The machine stopped. And that traumatic beep sound of the flat line boomed around the room. Jake’s cries overpower the sounds from the machines.

“NO! NO! NO! IT CANNOT BE POSSIBLE! ALESSA PLEASE DON’T LEAVE ME PLEASE!! *sob* PLEASE!! DON’T LEAVE *sob* ME PLEASE *sob* I LOVE YOU!! PLEASE!” Jake cried. It breaks my heart..

“Sir please go now. You cannot be allowed here anymore. Only family.” The nurse informed him.

“NO! HINDI PWEDE! HINDI KO SIYA IIWANAN! PLEASE ALESSA PLEASE WAKE UP!!” Sigaw niya.

“Jake! Please. Let my daughter *sob* rest.. please!” My mom begged. She’s cool though she can cry easily in a second ha ha ha.

“Tita, could you tell them that Alessa will wake up. That Alessa is alive?! Tita please! Tell them! Sabihin mo sa kanila na buhay pa si Alessa! Please!!” Jake begged my mother. I hate to listen to him frustrated like this.

“Jake please! Let her go!” –Mom. Go mom!

“Tita.. please..” Jake cried more.. I opened my eye a little just to see him kneeling in front of my mom begging. While the nurse is actually preparing me for the reconstructive surgery.

“Jake. Let her go. Let her be free. Please” My mom begged for one last time.. Then she helped Jake and walked away.

I finally opened my eyes and relaxed.

“It must have be hard for you Alessa.” Kate, the nurse slash my bestfriend for life slash ate said.

“Ate naman eh.. mas lalo tuloy akong kinakabahan para mamaya.” Sabi ko.

“Loka! May anesthesia naman na ilalagay sayo mamaya. Mag-prepare ka na lang sa braces mo. Mas masakit pa ata yun eh.” Sabi niya.

“Ay bakit? Naranasan mo na ba?” Tanong ko.

“Hindi pa, pero nurse ako di ba? Shung ka ba?” Sagot ni Ate hahahaha.

“Hahahahahaha!” Tawa naming dalawa. Masayang isipin na kahit ang bigat bigat ng kalooban ko ngayon, eh talagang may kalokohang sumisingit ngayon hahaha.

“Alessa? Are you ready?” Tanong ni mommy na kakapasok lang sa kwarto.

“Yes mom! Ready as i’ll ever be!” Hahaha medyo excited ako okay.

“Wow looks like somebody has cheered up and excited!” Sabi ni mommy.

“Well, its my first time to be pretty so why not be excited?” I answered. Well, its true. I was never and never felt pretty or cute, There’s a lot of pimples/acne/whatsoever on my face and i don’t like it. I’m teased for it. Nobody ever liked me. Except Jake, Gabriel and Benedict. Hardly, they were also guys which caused me a bad image. Na malandi daw ako, na maharot daw ako.. I just cried it all to sleep. Even my family judged me. Except mom. Mom was always there for me. To support me. Even though sometimes I really get irritated by her voice, I still love her, more than anything else in this world.

“You’re always pretty honey, Gorgeous as the way you are. Now get yourself ready as we’ve only got 15 minutes ‘till your operation.” Mom said as she kissed my forehead.

“Goodluck andrea!” Kate said as she went out of my room. Haha though she sometimes call me Andrea instead of Alessa hahaha

“Have you picked you own name yet dear?” My mom asked. Of course I have! Hahahha medyo mahaba nga lang..

“Yes mom! Medyo mahaba since it would be Glenndale Alessandra Marie Catherine hahaha pero itatago ko na lang po yung real name ko inside my new name being ang malalaman lang po nila ay Glenndale Catherine lang po.” Sagot ko.

“That’s a wonderful name honey!” Sabi ni mommy.

“Thanks mom!”

Nanood muna kami ng tv for about.. 10 minutes then I was called to the operation room. I prayed first then they injected something to me which I know is Anesthesia because my eyes got heavy and I was asleep in a blink of an eye. Goodbye Alessandra Marie.. Hello Glenndale Catherine.

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Chapter two tomorrow.