Prince Imagines

Anniversary

Due to the fact that tomorrow is his one year anniversary...and that I am not coping as well as I thought with it...I will not be posting Part 2 of my Camille Imagine tomorrow like I was planning. I'm not in the right headspace.

There's too much smack talk going on with Prince's death when it should be tributes and its sickening to me. Peoples theories left right and centre and labelling him a drug addict and all this shit. It's not right, I don't want to hear that shit...not days before his anniversary.

And something about a remastered  'Purple Rain' album coming in June? I'm not mad about that, we should have only heard about that...not all the other crap. The investigation should be kept private, just because its...you know...Prince...doesn't mean everyone should know his business.

I've also got my health issues as usual going on as well as other personal issues that I can't talk about publicly. I've tried so long to mask my pain with smiles and my usual jokes and sarcastic personality but everythinh is catching up to me now. I don't know how much longer I can hold onto everything.

I'll post when I can get it together, out of respect for our Purple One I won't be on at all tomorrow.

To our Dearly Beloved,

You were taken from us too soon, you weren't just an average artist...you were a unique artist, THE artist. You meant so much to everyone, for different reasons. Il tell you why you mean so much to me...

My Mother only told me about you briefly in 2013 as she was is a major fan of yours herself. I was going through quite alot in that year...fighting with my family, something major happened that I still can't get over or forgive this person for, my highschool senior year and stressing over if I was going to get that university course (Didn't get it) and I was still in that grieving stage from Michael Jackson's passing also.

I heard the 'Purple Rain' album hear and there and would bop my head to it whenever I would hear it. As well as the 'Around The World In A Day' album and '1999' album. I got into it but I was too distracted by my schooling and family to get into it properly like I wanted. I only got into your music a year later when I heard you were going on tour, then I once again got distracted...but I had a reason...a family member passed away.

2015 I was all over the place, I was depressed and even suicidal.

Then came February 2016...word was you were coming to Australia for some shows. I was willing to work my ass off, overtime and even overnight shifts as long as I got tickets to come see you. But sadly it was out of my price range and they sold out quickly. I was devastated, I wasn't excited about anything that year...it only got worse when you left us.

You know what the worst part is? I'm feeling the same guilt I felt when I never saw my grandmother enough when I should have while she was here for a short time battling lung cancer. I feel guilty for not getting into your music sooner when I knew very well I could have had the chance.

I'm kicking myself for not going out and buying your albums years ago when my Mother first spoke about you...people tell me not to feel bad but I do. Nothing anyone can say will change my mind.

I'm at my lowest at the moment, I'm this close to just locking myself away from the entire world. Your music is the only thing keeoing me going, specifically the song "Still Would Stand All Time"... it just speaks to me.

To some people you're too out there, raunchy...to me you're inspiring, creative and the smartest artist I've ever seen. You tell a story in your music whereas most musicians these days just put out songs with repetitive lyrics and computerized music just for a spot on the top 10 on iTunes. You keep it real.

I love you and I miss you. I won't say I promise to not cry tomorrow because we all know thats a lie. What I can promise is I'll be getting a special tattoo for you...again.