Things happen for a reason.

CHAPTER 4

I got up and called my family. I told them I was leaving they were excited and sad at the same time. I told them everything will be okay. I was on the phone with my mom when she told me something that made my heart stopped. “Hey Shannon I don’t know if you will be happy or sad about this but… Lawrence is in California don’t you remember? After he you know…” “Yea mom, hold on” I smiled at Bryson who was helping Rebecca pack. I went outside. “Mom why you have to bring that up, you know how I feel about that.” “I'm sorry baby; but I just wanted you to be okay when you go, yall belong together Shannon, he is prefect” “don’t worry about me I’ll be fine” “okay Shannon, I'm sorry” “no mom I'm sorry, I shouldn’t of got a attitude with you, besides, look I’ll call you later when we get there okay” “okay baby girl, yall be careful” “I will yall too” I stood outside with tears in my eyes.

“Shannon, we need help” “coming” I dried my eyes and went back to help them pack. This took all day to do. This defiantly made me think twice about moving but then I realized I can’t let him win, I have to do whats best for my family. My past is done with now I have to worry about is the future. I called Mark and he told me he was ready. “What time is it?” “It is 9:30” “okay how about we go to bed and leave early tomorrow morning since It’ll take us three hours and five minutes, we can get settled in the new home and stuff” “yeah okay” “okay” I called mark and told him, he was fine with it.

“Momma, did you call and tell my teachers and dance teacher about it?” “Yes baby I sure did” “okay” “come on let’s get some rest” we woke up early like I planned and headed for the airport. Mark was behind us the whole time. We arrived and got our tickets. Me and Rebecca sat behind Mark and Bryson. I never saw Rebecca so excited in my life. She never had been on an airplane before. She kept touching things and looking out the window, I had to switch seats with her because of it. On the way there I kept having more dreams about him. I wanted them to go away already, I'm done with him, I'm married and I have a beautiful little girl, why would I need him.

We arrived on schedule; Rebecca was going everywhere. “Rebecca get back here” “sorry” “We can drive around later okay” “okay” We got our bags and headed for our new home. Rebecca ran into her room. We unpacked for two days straight. I can finally say that I hate packing and unpacking. Everything is finally perfect. Bryson came in the living room when I was looking at everything. “I love it” “me too” I smiled at him. He came up to me and put his arms around my waste and pulled me close to him. I could smell his aftershave. He leaned in and we kissed. “Mmm” He says. I laugh at him and we run into the room.

“You smell that?” “Smell what?” “The air” “No” “here stand here” He pulled me close to him. “Close your eyes and breathe in the air” I did what he said. I could feel his hands on my hands. I smiled and turned around to face him. I put my hands around his neck. “Did you smell it?” “Yeah I did, it sure does smell great” “really; like you” “no like you” I lean in and we touch noses. He laughs a little and kisses me. I could taste his lips on mine. He pushed away. “Is something wrong?” Running his hands threw his hair he says “Shannon, I can’t do this anymore” “what, what are you talking about?”

“I… This is hard to say but…” “Oh come on just say it” “hey don’t get an attitude with me” “well, apparently you don’t want to be with me anymore” “No that's not it you don’t get it…” He paces back and forth in the sand. “Then what is it” I walk closer to him. “I have to leave” I felt like dying right there. “Where are you going?” “California…” “What… what… why?” “I joined a dance troupe called future Shock LA; they asked me to go a couple of days ago” “is that why you have been spending more time with me then you ever have?” “Yeah… but Shannon I love you okay I always will, this will be a great opportunity for me” “oh and being with me isn’t?” “Shannon do not start please. Can you at least be happy for me” “I am happy for you Lawrence but I want us to be together… can I be happy too?” He looked down. “Lawrence please don’t go, I'm begging of you”