The Guy I fell Inlove with is My BFF's Boyfriend

Chapter Six

Chapter Six

Next morning, I was sitting on the passenger seat of Shane's car. You see, Aubrey's sister, Avery, arrived yesterday from Barcelona with her 8 months old baby. Aubrey wants to spend time with them so she asked Shane to go with me today at Confetti's for the plastic floral leis that we had come up for Olivia's Party.

"So, Shane, do you have work tomorrow?" She asked him yesterday.

"Yeah, but at night. Why?"

"You see, I'm not free tomorrow." She explained. "So I was wondering if you could help Hailey tomorrow."

"No, I'm okay. I can manage." I said not wanting to be alone with Shane tomorrow. He seemed to read my mind because he looked at me with a curious expression in his eyes, and I thought I saw hurt. Why would he be hurt? I was probably just imagining it.

"No, it's not. So, Shane, are you okay with that?"

"Really, Brei. It's okay. I'm good." I repeated, emphasizing this time willing her to drop it.

"Yeah, sure. I would gladly help. It's for Olivia's party anyway." He said, agreeing to the idea of being alone with me. For Olivia.

That's how I ended up in his car today. When he said those words yesterday, I can't help but feel bad. He's going to help me because it's for Olivia's party. Yeah, I know something happened between us but did I really expect him to love me? Of course not.

He loves Olivia very much. That much is obvious to me and I can't deny that, not even to my benefit.

She's the first girl that he dated that lasted longer than three months. They are dating for 10 months now and I think Olivia loves him, too. You see, Olivia is the type of girl that doesn't do serious relationship. And now, here they are, going strong. While I on the other hand think that maybe because of what happened between us, he might leave Olivia for me. I didn't want to assume at first, but right now, I don't know why I am feeling like this.

I was so lost in my thoughts that I didn't notice that we have arrived at Confetti's and Shane was now on my side of door and got it opened for me. "So, are you just gonna stay there?" he asked.

"Oh! I, uh, I'm sorry." I said and blushed. I feel so embarrassed.

"Spacing out again, I see." He said with his both eyebrows raised to let me know that he's amused that I did it again.

"Yeah, just thinking. C'mon. Let's get this over with" I said and went inside Confetti's not waiting for him.

Inside, I quickly saw the floral leis that we're looking for then took it. I felt Shane's presence behind me and I turned and saw him just inches behind me. I looked up at him and jumped back quickly, shocked that we're too close.

"Sorry. Didn't mean to startle you." He said with an unreadable expression.

"It's okay. Can you hold this for me?" I said, raising the floral leis and passing it to him.

"Sure. How many of this do you need?"

"I don't know, about fifty pieces. What do you think?"

"Yeah, it'll be fine."

After that we went to the cashier and Shane paid for it. He said he wants to pay for it for his girlfriend. So, I just let him pay for it and left him in there. I went to his car and buckled up. My eyes are stinging because I am holding the tears. What is wrong with me?! I shouldn't be acting like this. They're dating and pretty much in love with each other, and what I'm supposed to expect? Of course, NOTHING!

A single tear managed to escape my right eye, I brushed it off immediately. I took a few deep breaths to calm myself and hold back my tears. My chest feels so heavy, it's like someone is pulling it down, not just pulling it but also squeezing it. A tear rolled down my face again, and this time I brushed it off so angrily.

Why am I feeling this way? I am supposed to feel guilty for what happened between me and Shane. It shouldn't have even happened and I'm lucky it did. And now that I have thought of guilt, it's shockingly weird that I don't even feel any at all. A part of my brain says that I should be ashamed of myself for betraying the best friend I ever had, but other part of me says that I am just taking what is rightfully mine. And what I mean by rightfully mine is Shane.

Clearly, I've been deep in my thoughts again 'cause I haven't noticed that Shane is already beside me until he slam his door close. I looked at him and he's studying me, curiosity and worry are clearly visible in his eyes. His eyebrows are also twitched and he is staring at me intently as if he's trying to see right through my mind. I looked away, because his stares make my insides flip and turn. Too much for those sexy blue eyes.

He started the car and drove, we're silent. Not even a word, just the sound of the cars from the outside and our breathing. I keep on glancing at him and I don't know why! I wanted to stop but after a minute or two I'd find myself glancing at him again. I'm not sure if I'm expecting him to ask me something or talk about what happened between us yesterday, I mean I wanted to discuss it but I just didn't know how to open the topic. Do I blurt the question? To be truthful, I have no clue how to form my question. I just sighed and looked out of the window, that's when I noticed that we're not heading home, we're on our way downtown.

"Hey, why are we here?" I asked him.

He glanced at me and gave me that amazingly lopsided smile that always melted me, the left side of his lip is higher than the other. I can now see his dimples on both side of his cheek. "I notice you're kind of feeling low a while ago, so I decided to take you to this new ice cream parlor downtown. Sounds good?"

I smiled widely at him and clapped both my hands "Of course! Who doesn't love ice cream?"

I heard a hearty laugh from him and it made my heart skip a beat, I MADE HIM LAUGH! I smiled to myself and wondered why he laughed, should I ask him? Hmm, definitely not. I might spoil the moment.

-- LA DIPERIE --

I can't seem to remove the smile on my face and I feel a bit giddy. Shane noticed it because he said with amazement clear in his voice "What are you smiling so widely about?" he smiled down at me, "not to mention the light pink on your cheeks."

What? Am I blushing? I covered my face with one of my palm "Nothing, I just remembered something" I said and looked away.

We reach the ice cream shop and there's a queue so I decided to check their menu. "Hey, do you want to give me the flavor you want so you can find a seat for us?" He asked.

"Um, can we .. um .." I trailed off hesitating, I feel shy by the intensity his eyes are giving me. I mean, he always have that effect on me. I looked up at him and I saw him smiling "What?" I asked.

"Nothing, you're so adorable when you hesitate like that. Tell me, what is it?"

"Can we go to the garden on the roof top?"

"Of course."

I smiled at him and like a kid I hugged him. "Thanks!" I looked up to him and he is smiling wildly at me, too.

I REALLY LOVE THIS GUY, AND I DON'T KNOW IF IT'S A BAD THING OR NOT.