Cold Hearted (Sketch X Reader)

Ashamed

                     •Emily's POV•
I don't know why I hurt myself but I did. "Elijah I did it because I thought I was dreaming, I didn't think sub and Braden were here. I thought I was going crazy!" She looked at me with pain in his eyes. "Just go. I need to figure this out by myself." "Emily I'm not leaving you! I love you till the end. When everything falls apart and it's just you and me. I'll be there no matter what. And if you really want me to go, then I'll go. But I'll never forget you." It sounded so sweet but I need space from him. I need to gather my thoughts. "Elijah, I can't do this. Please just go." "Are you breaking up with me..?" Elijah asked clearly starting to cry. "YES ELIJAH TAKE A HINT! WHEN I SAY LEAVE I MEAN LEAVE! PLEASE LEAVE GEEZ!" I covered my mouth that I'd say something like that but I do. I need space from him and from any relationships. "Fine." He said with an angry tone in his voice. I'm sad that I did what I did but..I hope he gets what I'm saying. The door swings open and Braden comes inside. "What now. Did Elijah bring you in here?" I said annoyed. "No I came to check on you. Are you ok? Elijah stormed out and left in a rush." "I broke up with him. I need space. I want to be alone." "But you love him and he's loves you. Don't you?" "Braden yes! But you don't understand what I'm going through. I just need some time to gather myself and start over." I started to look down when Braden grabbed my hands and lifted my head back up to look at him. "You know, maybe you should talk to sub about this. He's better at comforting people than me." I was very confused where he was going with this but he left and sub walked in. "Hey sub. Braden said you can help me..." "Yes I can help you. Y'know I, I, like you Emily. I'm sorry but I do. And I completely understand that you don't like me the same cause you obviously like Elijah." Sub says. I was astonished by what he just said. But honestly deep, deep down..I think I liked him to. "Well I'm starting to think Elijah isn't my type." He was taken aback by what I said. I started to blush but I just told Braden and Elijah that I'm done with relationships. Which is true but I'm keeping that promise and goal. I didn't need anyone to get in the way. Sub started to lean close to me and kiss me but I pushed him away. "I'm sorry. But I'm not doing this, I'm not ready." He looked kinda sad but he understood where I was coming from. Next was Alex's turn to see me and he brought me flowers and a get well card. I started feeling nauseous and he ran to get help. They came back inside and started doing an operation on me. They all had the saddest faces and put me to sleep. When I awoke I see all the guys standing there looking at me with sad faces. All except Elijah. "Why are you all so sad?" Alex stepped up and said "they did not tell you?" "Tell me what" Denis piped in and told me, "You have cancer." I knew I hurt myself by punching my stomach EXTREMELY hard but, I have cancer? That's probably why I am hurting so bad. The pain just keeps getting worse and worse. "Does Elijah know?" I ask them they shake their heads no. "Where's my phone?" I say and sub hands me it. "Thanks." "No problem." I go to my messages and text Elijah.
(E-emily El-elijah)
E-hey I'm sorry for what I said but I need to talk to you.
El-its fine I guess. But what do you wanna talk about.
E-i have cancer
El-what? I'm coming!
E-ok.
                     ~end of texts~
I press the button for the nurses to come to my room. Finally one walks in, "Are you ok? Need any help with anything?" "Actually I have a question. I don't know if you can help me or not but I was just diagnosed with cancer and I was wondering how long of a time a have left." "I'm sorry I can't tell you that answer but I can go get a doctor that can." "Thanks." She looks at my board and not long after a doctor comes and has a sheet of paper. "Hello ma'am, so you wanna know how long you have left? Is that correct?" "Yes sir." "Ok, you have approximately 5 months and a few days. I'm sorry that this happened dear. We are still looking for a cure." I nod my head and he leaves. I signed and Elijah walks in the door. "Elijah! I'm glad to see you! I'm terribly sorry I said all that stuff to you earlier." "It's fine. Really. But worst of all I'm sorry that you have cancer." I nod my head and he asked, "Do you know how long you have left?" "5 months and a few days." "Dammit. That's not very long. I'm so, so, SO sorry that your going through this." "Me to." As a scratch the back my head the hair that was once there fell right off with no pain. "OMG. Noo! Why!" I said with the hair in my hand. I can't control myself and I rip off all the wires on me and I run. I run like my life depended on it. Everyone started following me telling me to stop. But I didn't listen. I knew that they would catch me if I took the elevator so I took the stairs. I run to the top of the building and look off the ledge watching the parking lot.