𝐭𝐨𝐮𝐜𝐡 - 𝐤𝐬𝐲

< seven

All the feelings are the same now,
But in this moment, I want you to stay

;Let's Not Fall In Love + Big Bang

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» park siyeon's pov

I lost track of the days and nights. But the only thing I remembered was one name... Kwon Soonyoung

That boy fucked me up really bad. He didn't do much to me, but I was messed up over him. He was still in love with Mihyon. I should have known

Here I was, standing on my balcony and watching the city shine at night. I lifted the cigarette that hung between my fingers and dragged it to the space between my lips, sucking in the toxins and breathing it out

I wanted to die, but at the same time I didn't want to. I still wanted to see him. I could waste my wishes on him all I wanted, but if we were not meant to be, then we're not meant to be

Suddenly, the smell of smoke brought me into another memory of the past. My mother sold me to the people she owed money to, because she couldn't pay them back. Imagine, your own mother doing this to you. The person who's supposed to take care of you. It was unfair. But if it wasn't for that unfairness, I wouldn't have reincarnated

The men had been torturing me for weeks and I wanted to die. The abused me, harassed me and did all sorts of things to me. I was only 19. After several failed attempts of escaping, I finally gave up and killed myself. I remember, they were eating food by the fire and I ran into it. I hoped they wouldn't pull me out and beat me

And they didn't . ❝Look at her, she thinks she's important, we've already used her❞ ❝She thinks we'll save her❞ ❝She's not the only young girl out there❞ They began laughing and I could feel tears amidst the heat. I felt myself burn away as I cried out a prayer to whoever was listening. Their laughing drowned away as I came back to reality

I dropped my cigarette unintentionally and grabbed my head as I fell down on my knees. I had really hoped that I would never see this memory again, yet here it was. I then began crying again

As I lifted my hands to wipe my eyes, I noticed the changed tattoo on my wrist

6180

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» vernon's pov

I finally figured it out. Siyeon was reincarnated also. The tattoo on her wrist, I noticed it when I grabbed her arm the day I caught her crying in the hallway

First I kept doubting it, then I asked to take the flowers to give Soonyoung–hyung so I could see it clearly, and I did. I memorized the number 6194. And the next day, when we were eating, her sleeve rolled down a bit and I saw it again. It had changed to 6193. Also, she wore long clothes and didn't know much about the modern world

The textbook? Really?

Also, she seemed so fond of love. Back then, girls were only hidden in houses and would marry out of arrangements. Now she was free, and I bet she was enjoying it.

But I know she's reincarnated also, because so is Soonyoung or Hoshi. Soonyoung–hyung opened up to all 12 of us, and told us everything, and we believed him.. Of course, he was close with all of us. How long could he keep it a secret? Once we found out about what Mihyon almost did to him, we were all furious. We didn't want to loose our precious Soonyoungie. We tried to stop Mihyon from visiting but we couldn't, the only thing we could do was make sure Soonyoung wasn't at home when she visited. That day, Mihyon shouldn't have been there. But even if she wasn't, Soonyoung–hyung still had feelings for her

I sighed. It was late at night, yet here I was, sitting on the bench Soonyoung–hyung told me they usually sat on. The street lights helped make it able for me to notice the carvings on the bench

One caught my eye

❝And it's only been a short time, but I'm already wishing you were mine❞

I let my thumb go over the carving. That's when a thought hit me. Did the both of them know, each other was reincarnated? I was sure not, yet I doubted so because they seemed so close to each other

I had to tell Soonyoung–hyung!