𝐭𝐨𝐮𝐜𝐡 - 𝐤𝐬𝐲

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Even for just a moment
You make me forget all about the hard things

;Lean On Me + Seventeen [HipHop Unit]

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» park siyeon's pov

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It had been a week, and Soonyoung never showed up. 'See you tomorrow' was a lie

But even if it was a lie, here I sat, waiting for him. For a promise broken every day that went by.

My eyes were focused on the grey clouds above. I had been sitting here since morning. I had hope he would come by here

After trying to drown myself, I still woke up in my bed, just like the other 100 times I tried to drown

I closed my eyes and felt the small showers of rain pelt against my face. That's when thunder clapped and rain began to pour

I then looked down on my dark blue jeans, waiting for rain to soak me and my clothes. After thinking about my sad life for awhile, I almost heard a voice

That's when I noticed that the space around me was soaked, but I wasn't. I then looked up to see Soonyoung. He was soaked in rainwater and was holding an umbrella over my head

I didn't know what to say. I was speechless

❝I'm sorry❞ He whispered

I tried to speak but he cut me off ❝I let you wait for seven days, I...❞ he trailed off ❝I'm a terrible person❞

I pursed my lips, not knowing what to say

❝Can you give me another chance?❞ His face held the expression of hope, yet a little sadness

❝Another chance?❞ I managed to ask

❝Another chance for me to steal your heart❞

I was pretty sure he already had a bit of it, but I just slowly nodded. He tried to hide his relieved smile

❝Can I take you somewhere?❞ He smiled cheekily

I nodded

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The both of us looked down onto the now dried up city. Soonyoung had taken me to the top of his apartment building

❝It's beautiful❞ I breathed

Soonyoung nodded, ruffling his damp hair in an attempt to dry it

❝Why'd you bring me here?❞ I asked, turning to him

He shrugged  ❝I don't know, I just like this place❞. I nodded before turning back to the view

❝I hope this can make it up to you❞ He said, a cheeky 'please-accept-this' smile on his face. I managed a giggle

He then cleared his throat ❝Actually, I wanted to tell you something❞

I raised a brow  ❝What is it?❞

He took a deep breath. ❝Last week, when you sat next to me...❞ He paused, inhaling

❝Mhm?❞ I hummed, urging him to go on

❝I was writing my suicide note❞ I gasped but he continued ❝And talking to you made me feel better also. I felt as if someone finally showed sunshine in a dark spot❞

He then paused, before chuckling ❝When you asked me to hold your hand, I was shocked at first, but then I decided that I wanted to live❞

I felt warm at heart. I did this for somebody? I smiled. Maybe it's time I let him know he saved me too. ❝Truth is, I was gonna kill myself also❞

He narrowed his eyes at me ❝Just because I told you my story doesn't mean you have to make one up so we can relate–❞

❝I'm serious❞ I said

He eyed me before finally nodding ❝Go on❞

❝But then after you made me laugh, I decided to stay❞

He smiled at that

❝Yeah but you left me waiting for one week❞

❝Hey! I thought this made up for it!❞

I laughed, shaking my head ❝Explain first, where you went❞

❝Okay fine❞ He said, giving in

❝I had to train, and my manager didn't allow me to go out❞

❝Where do you live? Hell?❞ I joked

He laughed  ❝No, I'm just a trainee at some entertainment and yeah❞

❝So you're training to...❞

❝To be an artist❞

I nodded  ❝Oh, I thought you were hanging out with Mihyon and ignoring me❞. I suddenly stopped at that. That's when awkwardness started

❝Why would I hang out with my ex?❞ He asked

❝I don't know? Because maybe you like her? Who knows❞

He didn't say anything. A few seconds ticked by before he spoke again ❝We broke up because of me❞

I raised a brow

❝It was stupid to let her date me when I hate skin ship❞ He said, his voice sounded full of regret. ❝And one night, she tried to get onto me and I pushed her, a little too hard and she ended up falling down on the glass coffee table nearby and passed out❞

I kept silent and tried to comfort him. ❝Hey, it's okay. She wasn't respecting you or what you wanted❞ I said calmly

❝Now every time I see her I feel guilty, and because she's friends with my friends I see her all the time❞

I pursed my lips ❝You'll get over her eventually. You don't have to keep reminding yourself about your mistakes❞

He kept silent at that

❝You'll learn to forgive yourself, and she'll learn to respect people❞ I managed to say

He sighed. ❝Thanks Siyeon❞ He turned to face me ❝I don't think I'd be alive if it wasn't for you❞

I smiled back  ❝Me either❞