The Girl Next Door

~28~

"Find me in the dark. I'll be in the stars..."

♠ Confessions ♠

Onika Maraj

"Rob..." I say, pushing her off of me for the millionth time tonight.

"Why?" She whines, trying to feel on me again.

I slap her hands and try to focus on my homework. She moves closer once again and I scoot to the far end of the couch, resuming my work.

"I'm trying to work. Thanks to you, I'm a week behind."

Robyn groans again, whining,"so? Show me some attention."

"Later," I mumble, trying to figure out what the hell is the value of X.

"X is 27.876 mmHg." Robyn grunts from the other end of the couch.

I shake my head, calculating it. The answer was right. How'd she know that?

"Thanks," I mumble, not looking up as I write the answer down.

I continue with doing my work for another fifteen minutes without incident. The only sound throughout the house is the light rain outside.

Suddenly I stop, hearing a sniffle coming from the other end of the couch.

I twist my brows, raising my head to look at Robyn. She's sitting Indian style on the couch with her hood on top of her head and she's wiping at her face with her hoodie sleeve. I mentally face palm myself, forgetting that her emotions are all twisty turny. Now I made her cry. Good going, Nika.

"Babe?" I ask, my voice soft as I put my homework down on the table and turn towards Robyn.

Robyn shakes her head and looks away from me.

"Rob..." I say, moving towards her.

She still doesn't answer, looking elsewhere.

I climb into her lap and straddle her hips, turning her tear-stained face towards me.

"What's wrong?"

She tries to look away but I keep my grip on her chin and maintain strong eye contact though her eyes keep darting away.

She sighs, probably seeing that I'm not giving up. Her eyelids flicker shut for a moment before another tear shows itself. I brush her tear away with my thumb and poke my bottom lip out,"tell me what's wrong."

She sighs again, looking away before glancing back at me,"I just... I wan' ya to love me."

My mouth drops open,"I do."

"I know. It's just I wan' it at all times. Like... Show me affection."

"Why you so demanding about it?" I ask.

"I... Didn't get any growin' up..." She admits, looking away again.

I could see the hurt and hatred in her eyes so I don't dare to push the subject further.

"I understand," I tell her, moving some of her messy hair out of her eyes.

"Can ya do dat? I hope I'm nah soundin' too desperate. I need love an' affection."

I shake my head,"no. I will show you love and affection. As long as you show me some back. You got that Green Eyes?"

Robyn cracks a smile, looking back at me,"yea. I got ya."