Beautifully Chaotic

03 | Old Kisses

Chapter 3 :

Chase's emerald eyes stare at me. I try everything possible to avoid his stellar stare, and trying to convince myself that I don't miss his eyes looking at me. But I do. I really do miss him and his eyes and his touch and everything about him.

I give in and tilt my head slightly so my hazel eyes land on his strong body. His eyes have averted from me and is now buried in his hands. I twist which causes my hair to fall all over my back exposing my bare neck in the lose fitting dress.

I keep staring as his hands move away from his face and his eyes land back on me. His movement is so swift, so controlled and smooth.

"How are you so... so good with words?" I speak breaking the unbearable silence between us. The walls of his room feel like it's closing in on us making the space between Chase and I nearly nothing.

His hand closes in on my small one sending warm electricity through my little body. The walls have completely caved in when his lips land on mine. I part my mouth allowing him in, and gosh, have I missed this.

He keeps me close against his chest as we lean deeper into his bed. His mouth explores my neck as he kisses a small trail of kisses from my jawline all the way down to my collarbone. His mouth on my neck catches my breath in my throat and makes my blood boil in anticipation. Everything explodes within me and I can no longer contain my yearning for him. I find the hem of his shirt and it comes off.

I feel him smile against me which causes my lips to spread as well. My eyes flutter open and I can visually see the outline of his abs even though the lighting is dim.

"I've missed you," he whispers steadily and his breathe on my neck sends warm chills down my spine.

"So you've said," I tease which causes him to chuckle.

Chase's hands snake it's way over my back and soon finds the zipper of my dress. I press closer to him so every curve of my body can fit neatly in his. My barriers are completely broken down and let Chase in.

My hearts racing as our mouths move in sync with each other's and as his hands explore new parts of my skin. I've been afraid of another humans touch because it can sink me too deep, but right now, I've already sunk to the bottom of the ocean. I'm living in pure bliss and harmony as my blood boils with anticipation.

Warm fire is running through my veins as Chase's lips are running over my skin. Skin is fragile, and right now I'm walking on a tightrope with nothing beneath. I'm holding onto a silver of trust that Chase is whispering into my ear.

It's possible for him to break my heart into tiny fragments and I'll be be waiting to pick up the pieces and put it back into his hands. He's addictive and this feeling is addictive. The feeling of wanting to feel wanted, the feeling of human contact, the feeling of being safe.

"I hate to admit it, but I've missed you a lot," my words come out breathlessly and I can see Chase's chest rise and fall too.

"Then don't leave again," for the first time ever I'm now just hearing Chase's voice unsteady.

I let him kiss me again so I can avoid the gaping hole in my heart. I have to leave again, I can't stay... But damn I want to stay locked in Chase's arms for as long as possible. I want to feel his skin on mine and I want to have the feeling of boiling blood from bliss.

I want Chase.

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Light slowly makes it way into my hazel eyes until my lids have completely fluttered open. The spot next to me in the bed lacks Chase's body. The door is a jar and I can hear murmurs from beyond.