Our Journey (the Fourth Book in the Her Weakness series)

Chapter 5

Clarke's POV

So we're going to Trishanakru (Glowing Forest Clan) next... I have to admit, I'm really excited to see it. I got a taste of it when the hundred first got here and saw those beautiful glowing blue butterflies on the trees at night.

I've told Lexa about it, even sketched a quick picture of it to show her exactly what it looked like when words didn't seem like enough. She has told me that it's even more beautiful there, especially since a lot of the butterflies stay there all year.

After Lexa's talked it up so much that I'm kind if anxious to get there.

But right now, I'm not focusing on me and my emotions. Right now, I'm focusing on how Lexa's gone deathly pale beside me, almost like she's going to be sick.

Lincoln excuses himself, giving his Heda a concerned look. I barely notice him leave.

"Lexa?" I ask softly. She doesn't seem to hear me. She keeps staring blankly ahead. "Lexa? Babe?"

Lexa shakes her head slightly, blinking rapidly. Her gaze focuses on me and she cocks her head to the side.

"Clarke? Why do you look so worried?"

"Niron (loved one, lover), you spaced out." I answer. "You were staring into nothing. You looked like you had seen a ghost or something. Lexa, what's going on?"

Lexa looks away from me and my concern for her skyrockets. What could be so terrible that she couldn't even tell me?

"It is nothing, hodnes (love)." She answers, still not looking at me.

"Don't pull that with me, Lexa." I order sharply. Lexa's surprised eyes meet mine. "I'm your girlfriend, I'm Wanheda, I'm not just some citizen you can lie to. It's obviously not nothing, so tell me."

Lexa hesitates, swallowing hard. I can practically feel the panic and anxiety radiating off of her.

"It is a secret, something I will not tell you until it is time." Lexa responds, pronouncing her words slowly like she needs the extra time to figure out how to phrase this. "Again, it is not something bad. And you are right, I should not lie to you, Clarke, ever. So I will be as specific as I can be at the moment. I have something special planned for when we are in Trishanakru (the Glowing Forest Clan). I thought I had a month to plan all of the details, and now I have a week. That is what I am panicking about."

I nod. I don't really like that she's not telling me everything, but I can respect the need to keep a secret. Actually, it's kind of impressive that she hasn't told me it yet. Lexa isn't great at keeping things from me. So the fact she hasn't told me means that it's something big. And for the life of me, I can't figure out what it could be. I don't have the faintest clue.

The only things I can think of would be considered bad, but I know Lexa would never keep bad things from me. Not after everything we've gone through together.

I nod, knowing that Lexa would appreciate a response. "Alright. Thanks for being honest, I respect that. So you'll tell me in Trishanakru what it is?"

Lexa smiles at me. "I won't have to. You'll know."

I raise an eyebrow. "That's not cryptic at all." She keeps looking at me with an adoring gaze and I melt. "Okay, okay. I love you. Now lets please get good, I'm starving." Lexa gives me an alarmed look. "Not literally."

"I know," Lexa murmurs.

"You have a really good poker face, babe."

"What is a poker face?" Lexa questions.

I fight the urge to give away my nefarious intentions with a smug expression. "Ask Octavia and Raven when we get downstairs."

She gives me a quick kiss before getting out of bed, leaving me sitting up on it, naked and alone. She sneaks a peek at me, probably so she can see how I'm responding to her teasing self. I narrow my eyes at her and smirk when she nearly trips over because she's staring at my bare upper torso.

"Careful, babe."

Lexa blushes, which deepens when I stand up and make my way over to her. Her pupils are blown out as I exaggerate the sway of my hips.

"Clarke, you said you are hungry." She rasps.

"I am," I practically purr out.

I walk past her, feeling more than seeing Lexa spin around to keep watching me. I get to the table in the room and grab some of Lexa's clothes. I turn around and quickly toss them at her. Despite her surprised expression, she catches them easily.

"So get dressed, babe." I say.

Lexa pouts at me, even trying her adorable puppy dog eyes when I silently stand my ground. I pretend to be unfazed when I'm actually internally a pile of bi goo on the floor. She's just the cutest thing sometimes. I give in slightly to the temptation and give her a quick kiss, knowing that anything longer would result in us not leaving the room all day. Which I'm really not opposed to, but I think Lexa has something she wants to do today.

She and I get dressed and I hold the door open for her. Lexa steals one swift kiss before exiting, making me giggle.

We head downstairs, where like usual, Octavia and Raven are lounging on a couch.

"Morning. You excited, Commander?" Raven asks.

"Shush, Rae." Octavia swats her half-heartedly.

They both look really happy and are looking at me like they know something that I don't. Which they probably do. Maybe they're helping Lexa with whatever surprise thing she's doing.

"Oh," Lexa murmurs, as though she just remembered something. "Right. Raven, Octavia. What is a poker face?"

Raven and Octavia exchange an ecstatic look.

"Ma-ma-ma-ma." Raven begins.

Then she and Octavia start on the beat, with Octavia beat boxing (badly).

"This isn't what I meant, but it is also a rather popular song. On the Ark, at least." I whisper quickly to Lexa.

I start singing the song so Raven and Octavia can focus on the beat, to their endless delight and to Lexa's amusement. She even laughs aloud when they get up and we all try to coordinate our dance moves on the spot. We don't really do well, but hearing Lexa laugh like that makes it more than worth it.

I saw the opportunity and took it... Maybe I'm just sleep deprived because my brilliant self went to sleep way too late and my internal clock woke me up at 7:45, but to me this is hilarious! Hopefully you think so too. Next chapter, Lexa's going to take the others to Costia's old teacher! We'll have to see if he takes Raven under his wing (see what I did there? Raven? Wing? Wow, maybe I am sleep deprived). Thank you all for reading and for your amazing comments! Stay awesome!