Before & After Class --- J.B & A.G

11 (finally)

{Ariana POV}

My phone was filled with Alexa's and Scott's text from early this morning. I didn't answer it, at all. It annoyed me as my day went on without replying to them.

I turned off my phone, and wrapped my arms around Justin. He's legs crossed with mine, while his head was nuzzled in my neck.

I kept thinking about Alexa. I just don't want, what me and Justin have go into dust. Then I don't want Alexa and our friendship to drift apart like my other shitty friendships did.
I rather let me and Justin's relationship be exposed or caught, to be honest.

It most likely be an easier complex way.

I tried to shrug the issue away, but I just couldn't. Either way, this will always be in the back of mind. The weight on my shoulders, until we break-up. If that's even an a possibility.
I kept thinking of being in a relationship with my teacher. After what he did to me... I didn't want to believe in love nor trusted it with all my heart... But is it bad to even say or think, that maybe if Justin made me believe and trust in it again... I really truly think, he's the one then...

After my mom passed, I didn't know how to recover. Four months straight I was in and out of drinking and smoking. (Yes my ex did interfere with why I started drinking and smoking) I don't ever want myself to fall in that hole again. I woke up in different rooms, different strange places, and different people I didn't even know. I was so scared of drinking sometimes, I would go to my doctor to take STD tests... Yes it sounds nasty, but I don't want to transfer a disease to someone, just because I didn't take care of myself properly.

Maybe I'm thinking too much. I honestly do not know. Maybe if I get out of this relationship, it will ruin me, but make me not as stress as I am now... It just makes me- UGH...!

I unwrapped my arm and took my legs out slowly from Justin's body. I didn't want to be around anyone at this very moment.
Justin's beautiful face made me annoyed. Sounds horrible. But the more I look at it I see Alexa's stupid and superstitious questions about me and Justin.
Ryan is annoying me, because he just moved in and we have to help him with his room... He's GAY! He should know what decor buy. Alexa... *mentally sighs* She's my bestest friend... I know that's not a word... But I much rather lose a boyfriend than my bestest friend...

At the same time... I don't ever want to lose someone who I deeply and full heartedly love... This is what true torment of love is. Now I know why people say "love has consequences."

I laid in the bed, simply thinking about the pros and the cons.
Pro: I found someone that's growing on me and really is interested in me than my boobs and ass. Yeah like I have one of them or both.

Con: My best friend will question me and everyone will.

Pro: Myself is slowly recollecting happiness.

Con: If I don't say about our relationship. People will try to figure out themselves, which you aren't Sherlock so sit the hell down.

Pro: I'm so into Justin...

Con: If the school and everyone who is against our relationship, finds out... I don't ever think I'll find someone just like Justin...

I sighed and let one arm hang off the bed...

"What to do, what to do." I mumbled to myself

{Justin POV}
I was pretending to sleep, because I don't want her to feel uncomfortable with me. I simply just want her to have her space...

Look, I like Ariana. Somewhat I feel like my LIKE... Should be replaced with 'Love' Ariana. My heart races every time she smiles at anything. My heart bursts with joy and happiness when she talks to me or I just hear her voice. My heart simply is full with a girl named Ariana...

I know, some might think, "THIS IS SO WRONG! A COLLEGE STUDENT WITH A TEACHER?! EW!"
Ummm... How...?

She's 19 almost going onto 20. I'm 27... That's seven years apart. There's worst couples than just me and Ariana. And, I see why it's 'disgusting' it's because I'm a teacher and she's a student. So when you think about it, you think of a five year old kindergarten and a 54 year old perverted teacher.

No I am not that. I know right from wrong. Disgusting and non-disgusting.

But love is love and nothing can't really defeat that fact. I tried to love and give everything to my so called last relationship. But she gave it away. She blew it.

What she didn't get was, I was the breadwinner. I was devoted to give her what she wanted, what she needed. But I guess it wasn't enough.

Now that I think of it, I'm so glad I'm not with her. Ariana is wayyy more better.

If I had kids with my last relationship... *face palms face mentally* Just know, I would actually kill myself.

When they say 'things do happen for a reason.' They actually do mean it. That's why philosophies are created. To look bigger and out of the lines of the written words. You never know what it might means or make sense to you.

But anyways...

I acted to turn around while sleeping to face the wall and not her anymore. I thought to myself, how will go on our first official date...?

I want to surprise her. I want her to be amazed and beauty by it. I wanna outdone myself than all the guys, she's ever been with.

I feel her small, warm, covered, arms wrapped around my neck. Her short self, tried to wrap her legs around my torso.

I burst out a loud laugh, because of how short she is. She was struggling to lift both legs up, so she could wrap herself around me. I felt her sudden reflexes jump, and released her arms from my neck.

"WOAH!" She said
"S-sorry..." I laughed turning around to face her

She shook her head, and roll her tongue around in her mouth.

"You were fake sleeping." She guessed

I squinted my eyes, with a confused expression.

"Okay, tell me how...?" I questioned her
"Because who randomly bursts out with laughter...?" She said back
"Uh me..." I mentioned to her with a duh tone

She rolled her eyes and pressed her lips on mine. She smiled a little during that kiss.

"My dork." She mumbles while our lips were pressed
"My princess." I mumbled back

She kissed me again.

"My precious gold." I smiled as she pulled away from the kiss

"AWWWW BABY..." She squealed with cuteness

I grinned with pure joy because of her.

"My entire heart!" I tried to sweeten her heart even more

She kissed me more and everywhere this time...

"I. Know. What. You're. Trying. To. Do. And. It's. Working." She mentioned between each kissed "Mr. Bieber."