vision { yoonmin }

ten

a;n

are the flashbacks making sense? are they? are y'all sure? because even i'm not sure, and i'm writing this shit. 

ps. i love this song

(consider this dedicated to @cassykatty, your comments made me smile)

- silkcity

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Yoongi insisted he didn't like parties, he loathed the small talk. He also insisted he didn't like drinking. Yet, here he was. At one of those stupid fucking house parties, a nearly empty glass of whisky neat in hand, making small talk.

"You should start producing under your own name, Yoongi. I've known you for a long time, and no one can make a song like you can." Seokjin said with raised eyebrows, downing the last of his drink. 

"Excuse you? Last time I checked I work at BigHit too." Namjoon said, his voice higher than usual. 

Seokjin snorted, "Aw, is someone jealous?"

Namjoon's face recoiled in disgust, "No, I'm just saying-"

"I appreciate the praise, Seokjin. But I couldn't do what I do without help from Namjoon, he makes me a better musician and a better person." Yoongi nodded towards Namjoon, throwing his head back and downing the last of his drink. 

Seokjin gushed, "Too cute! Well, I'll leave you two to talk, I'm going to go look for Taehyung and Jimin."

"Alright," Yoongi looked down into his empty glass. He reached out to grab Seokjin by his shirt, the slippery fabric narrowly passing through his fingertips. "Seokjin! Tell Jimin to lay off the alcohol, please! I don't want him drunk again!"

"Don't think he heard you," Namjoon shook his head, a cheeky smirk on his lips. 

Yoongi sighed and pursed his lips. "Drunk Jimin is the worst."

Namjoon scratched the back of his neck, looking around the busy room like he was searching for someone. "What does he do?"

"Honestly, you don't want to know." Yoongi sighed audibly and rested the back of his head against the wall. 

"Seokjin is right," Namjoon said.

"Huh?"

"He's right. You should make music under your own name." Namjoon looked down into Yoongi's eyes. Yoongi always got the impression that Namjoon enjoyed being taller than him, always lowering his head and making it painfully obvious that he was the taller one. "You're more than talented Yoongi, you have all the potential in the world to be doing music on your own."

Yoongi grimaced, rubbing the nape of his neck. He had considered it, but there were so many things to consider and, what if he wasn't good enough? "I don't know..."

"I mean, there's absolutely nothing wrong with doing work for idol groups. But, don't you want people to know it's you behind those lyrics? That it was you who came up with those lyrics? That you sat in that studio into the night slaving over those lyrics, making sure they were perfect?" Namjoon tilted his head, studying Yoongi's face intensively. 

Yoongi felt a chill run down his spine under Namjoon's intense gaze, "I don't know, Joon. Those idol groups, the members in them are beautiful, funny, attractive,  nice and likeable. I'm not anything like that. I'm not attractive like they are. I'm not likeable and charismatic like they are." Namjoon frowned, his stare getting darker. Yoongi kept going, "What if people... don't like me? You know how harsh people are on idols... if they're that harsh on people that try so hard to be perfect, how will they be with me?"

Namjoon clenched his jaw, "I don't know, Yoongi. You'll have to find out yourself." Namjoon charged off, accidentally knocking into another partygoer. 

"What the fuck?" She screamed right in his face. Namjoon shook his head again before storming into the next room.

Great. Well done Yoongi. 

"Hey, you're Min Yoongi right?" A guy slurred a little too loudly in his ear as he grabbed onto Yoongi's shoulder, his eyes were tinged pink and every word was followed by a stupid snicker. Great. 

"Yeah, that's me." Yoongi sighed, grabbing another can of beer from the table behind him. He cracked the tab open and started chugging down the bitter drink. 

"Hey, calm down man! It's only 11 o'clock." He laughed obnoxiously, nearly tripping over his own two feet.

Yoongi ignored him and finished the can. And another one. And another one after that. Even when Jungkook and Taehyung told him to stop. Even when Jimin told him to stop. 

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