Living A Day Longer Than Death.

This Is It

All my life,
All my life I prayed to have people around me,
That would encourage me to do better,
All my life I would bend over backwards to keep others happy,
At the expense of my own,
All my life I searched for people who,
Understood how I feel,
All my life I hoped that I could laugh at jokes that would not be centered around my insecurities and flaws,
And all my life I  hoped for people that would not turn on me for no,
Apparent reason.
All my life I've hoped and wished for these things to happen, instead the reality needle struck backwards on my clock of wishes.
It didn't happen, you wished it would happen but it didn't...
But you don't always get what you wish for I guess...
I guess...
I guess...
I guess...
I gUeSs!#

Fuck!!

I guess it's time to grow up, you little bitch!
They don't care about you! You're just a punchline to their many jokes!
You will always mean nothing to them!
Just a side character in this sitcom called life!
Stop getting offended for every little thing that happens to you.
Cause in all honesty,
They were preparing you for the real world!
A lesson that you will learn from sooner or later.
Put your fucking head up!
Smile,
And thank them!
Because if it wasn't for them,
You still wouldn't have any standards!
You would still be the naive ass you were 5 years ago!
You still would be a fool,
Thinking life is all happiness and flower crowns.
So don't feel bad about them,
Feel bad for all the years you wasted,
Investing in people that ignore you when you need them the most!
And when they've never felt bad about you!
Lift your chin up!
Look to the future!
You gotta move on Jay!
This is it!