Sabihin mo sakaniya i'll stop, i didnt do it before right saka bumigay ako agad, now ill do it right para matapos na to baka nga someday ill regret this or ill miss him pero ano magagawa ko diba, wala. Tell him also i said thanks sa lahat and maybe ill see him someday or never. But still i thank u for everything kahit di man niya alam kung bakit basta thank u. Sa lahat
Yah maybe magpopop parin siya sa utak ko na i need to tell him this or i need him pero hahahaha wala naman ako magagawa
Ill message him from time to time, ill limit myself
Tinulungan niya ako kay James sana naman sa sarili ko matulungan ko sarili ko na matapos to without anyones help kasi cycle na siya
Kung imemessage ko sakaniya to maybe delivered nanaman or kapag sineen niya he'll ask why, and my answer is still the same, nasasaktan ako. He's one of my happiness and also one of my sadness. Mabait, gentlemen, sweet. A girl yung " the one " swerte siya sakaniya. Kung ako si Janna di ko siya pinakawalan kasi sa ngayong panahon mahirap makahanap ng ganun
Curiosity, pangtritrip nakikita ko siya sa mga nakikilala ko pero wala ngang tatalo sa original
Nakikita ko nga siya sa iba pero original din siya, walang tatalo sakaniya, sa ngayon nasa list ko siya na nasa importanteng tao i don't know if mawawala pa yun
Baka nga ill forget pero the feeling is still there, baka nga makakalimutan ko sa ngayon pero kapag nakita ko the feeling is familiar
Baka nga kapag nakita ko siya ano pa magawa o ma react ko. Not talking to him, mahirap siya pero sanayan lang naman diba.
He said na nan dito parin siya para makinig sa problems and all, he also made promises, one of those promises is hindi niya ako iiwan. I get life, na hindi sa lahat ng pagkakataon nan jan siya para sakin and i get that life is unfair. Yah, promises are meant to be broken but in the first place why would you make one if you wont try to do it. In the end the person you made a promise with is broken.
That broken person needs help to build up. Siya, he met me while I'm like that and fixed a part of me and now i don't know if i feel broken again.
I want to end this before but then again i didn't do it cause its too much. I don't want our friendship to be over or forgotten. Now, im still not ready, nobody is ready for this thing, planned or not you need to be ready.
Im not ready but i want this feeling to end. I don't want to loose him but its part of it. I know that it will continue if i didn't do this. Leave him.
It hurts the way i say it, the way i plan it. It really does. Before i would think that im like the others but im the one who's going to leave them. It hurts cause i know what that feels.
This feeling that i have right now is a feeling that you will leave a person but i think it all through, what i will do and what will i do after and i know what will be my feeling after it. Broken.
Yours truly,
Your friend, Trix
PS thank you for the memories kahit na nagpapakatanga ka pa sa isang babae sana makuha mo yung saya na nakuha mo sakaniya, na sana ako yun, sana ako nalang. Tanga nga ako pero umasa parin ako, kahit masakit, nan dito parin ako para sayo.
As a friend.
Good bye
For now
