Pep talk

Self worth

I understand that the pain you're feeling at this moment might be unbearable.
I understand that you're going through an unwanted change.
My optimistic self can't save your pessimistic view.
Your personality is fading,
And with no power, I have no ability to stop it.
You asked me to be your motivation,
Yet, you push me away and see me as an excuse to compare the positive situations and the reality of it.
You made me realize that the harsh truth is more harmful than I thought it was.
Each day, I can feel you falling deep within your neutral self.
Each day, your emotions fade as well.
When I hugged you, I knew you were no longer the Jon Jon I knew.
But rather, Jonathan.
I will stand by your stubborn self.
I will support your decision even if I disagree. Because I can't do anything about it anyways. It pains me to see you like this and know I can't be the one to be able to make a change to that and stop your suffering.
You said you would eventually stop knowing your true self and later end up in a mental hospital. You're too much of a pessimist to know I won't let you go through that pain you're putting upon yourself.
Even if I get to distract you from yourself, you find a way to bring out the facts and kill me with the reality that pains you more.
I'm sorry.
I'm truly sorry.
I'm probably just another factor to add onto your stress.
Your self hatred has taken over you even when I shower you with compliments and positivity.
And then..
You told me..
You don't have self worth.
YOU WORTH MORE THAN YOU THINK. PLEASEEEEE TELL ME YOURE KIDDING.
Like I told you..
Change or not, your self worth doesn't change. You're still you. Your personality might fade but that doesn't affect the care from people who love you.
God you're complicated.