I hate that I love you. ( ON HOLD)

Ch. 4

Harry's POV.

"Alex is a broken person. She wasn't always like that though. She was happy, funny, bubbly and sassy and you could have a great time with her. She now fakes smiles and isn't the same happy perky, person she was before. Alex has semi trust issues now and doesn't believe in happiness for herself. Most of the strings inside her have broken. And I'm one if those broken strings."

What Louis had told be keeps playing through my head like a broken record. Alex was a broken person with little strings left. I was a broken person with little stings left.

Love is the only reason I have little amounts of string left in me. I don't think I can afford to get close to anyone.

"Harry lets go play football!!" Louis screamed in my ear. I sighed and went out side with Louis. It was really nice out side today which you don't get in London all to much.

I look over to Alex's house and see that she is sitting out side on the stone out lining her deck. She is reading and in her own world.

"Harold c'mon pay attention" he wined to me I laughed at him and turned all my attention to him and football.

"Hey I will be right back." He runs over to Alex's living me in his yard, standing here looking like a semi idiot.

Alex's POV.

I woke up this morning, grabbed my phone and the fault in our starts and go out side to finish the book. I hear Louis and Harry talking while playing football but I don't look up. I pull all my focus into this book.

I feel someone tap my shoulder and I jump a little I look up at the same time he says my name

"Alex" Louis smiles I don't return it though.

"Louis, what are you doing?" I avoid all eye contact with him.

"Can we talk. Please, I need to tell you so much Alex, please" this time I look at him. His eyes are pleading for me to say yes. I sigh and give in

"Sure Lou, I will give you 7 minuets"

He smiles and sits down next to me. Before he starts he takes in a deep breathe.

"Alex, 3 years ago I left for the X-factor. 3 years ago I got put I'm a group and lost. 3 years ago I got signed with my band members and we started to record and tour. 3 years ago is when we lost all touch. 2 years ago we released a second album. 2 years ago still no contact with You. 2 years ago still no talk. 1 year go is when I figured that we would never talk again. We would never have our late night phone conversations. We wouldn't have each other. I've been wanting to talk but you must have gotten a new phone and changed your number." I'm taken back by this. All this time I just thought Louis didn't want me anymore he had found a new best friend. Someone to replace me.

"Louis, I-I don't know what to say." I look down at my hands and wait for him to reply

"Alex. When I first saw you in Starbucks, you looked scared. You looked hurt, sad and scared to see me. Why?" I look up at him before thinking about his question.

"You hurt me. You left when I needed you. I don't have very many strings left before I become fully broken Louis. I was scared when I saw you because I don't want you to break another string. I was sad when I saw you because it reminded me of when you left me here, all alone. And I was hurt when I saw you because that's how you made me feel numb for 2 years. For 2 years I kept on thinking oh Louis will call, Louis will stop by. But last year I gave up completely." I sigh and look up at Louis. His eyes have glossed over and I'm pretty sure it will take a matter of seconds before he starts to cry.

"Alex, I didn't, I-I" he his lost in his words. I don't even know what to say right now. I look back down at my hands and trace my cross tattoo on my left hand with my finger, till I hear Louis cry.

I don't say anything I just stand up and hug Louis. He hugs me back tightly and sobs in my shoulder.

Harry's POV.

I keep my eyes on Louis and Alex as they talk then Louis start to cry. I know I can't but I feel like I should go up there, I don't. I just watch as Alex moves in between Louis legs and hugs him. He holds he tight and cries in her shoulder. I turn my head away, I don't handle people crying very well.

I lay down in the grass and just close my eyes thinking about everything there is for me to think about right now.

Alex, Louis, the band. Everything. I just lay there letting my thoughts take me in.