I hate that I love you. ( ON HOLD)

Ch. 1

Alex's POV.

It was just like every other Tuesday, but something just felt wrong. I pushed the thought of something going wrong out of my head and got out of bed.

I put on ripped black skinny jeans and a spider man T-shirt along with grey vans. I went to the bathroom and started to put on my make-up, some mascara and eyeliner. I brushed my hair and left it natural, I don't care to do anything with it most of the time.

I grabbed my phone an went to the kitchen pouring me a bowl of frosted flakes and headed to the living room. I turned on the tv and watched some football. I don't mind the sport, I played it up till middle school.

I just sat there in my living room munching on my cereal till I heard it starting to rain. Oh London your weather is so messed up. Yesterday it was really nice outside and now it's raining. Oh well I like the rain, it calms me.

"Louis Tomlinson is out on the field now" I almost spit my frosted flakes all over the table. This game was In London. So Louis is back in London? I haven't talked or heard from him In 3 years.

He is one of the reasons I smile through the pain. How do you think it feels hearing people around you say that he Is so kind, when he isn't. He is one of the reasons I started cutting to. How do you think it feels to have your best friend not only leave you when you need them most but not even try to keep in touch with you to. It hurts like hell.

And in top of all of that being 16 with a mom who just happens to be an alcoholic.

But that was 3 years ago. I'm not able to go in the past fix it. I can't even if I wanted to.

I look at my phone and it's 10:30 I really want some Starbucks... I get up and grab my car keys, turn off the TV and head out side to my car. At lest it stopped raining.

Once I get to Starbucks I order and wait for them to call my name.

"Alex." Somebody calls my name I get up and go to get my drink but that's not who said my name.