The Beginning of the End

Chapter 6

Soooooooooo I've learned that blocking people on instagram, snapchat, twitter, hangouts, and just blocking is actually fun. Beware.

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Alex's POV

I see Jasmine and Sofia walk towards us.

"Ok, now that we are armed, we can start packing things into the cars." Farah says.
"Umm, maybe we should eat and rest first." Kaylie suggests.
"Right," replies Farah, "there should be canned beans in the kitchen."

I follow Farah and everyone else upstairs to the kitchen. I watch as Farah takes cans of beans and a can opener. She pops of one of the tops of the cans and starts handing around the food around. I get a can and slowly start eating. Wait why aren't we....

"Shouldn't we be rationing food?" I ask looking at Farah then to Jasmine who shrugs at me.
"Nah. We'll be fine for now." replies Farah not even looking up at me.
"But we could run out of food." I insist thinking of the consequences.
"Yeah, but not for awhile." Farah responds, this time looking up at me to roll her eyes.
"Fine, but when we run out of food and all die, don't blame me." I say.
"I won't be able to," Farah smirks, "I'll be dead."

Jasmine's POV

I search for a spot to sleep for the night. I look to see the guys all on the couch.... in some sort of man pile??? Wtf???

"You guys look comfortable?" I say.
"You wanna join us? Evan asks pervertedly.
"Yeah, there's us seat right here." Aiden laughs motioning to his lap.
"Ummmm... no. I think I'll pass." I say walking away to what looks like a book room.... library... maybe an office.

I sit down. Soon Kaylie comes in, takes a book from the shelf closest to her, and sits down next to me.

"What book are you reading?" she asks me.
"Winter." I say as I flip the page.
"Dude, you're still reading that." she says.
"The world is ending!" I scream, "How am I supposed to find time to read?!"
"Does it look like I know." Kaylie responds laughing.
"What book are you reading." I question her laughing back.
"Little Women" she responds.
"Can I spoil it for you?" I ask grinning.
"If you do, I won't talk to you for a week." she threatened.
"Fine, I won't spoil it for you." I sigh.

I look at my watch to see the 11:30 pm.

"I think I'm going to go to bed now." I yawn.
"Ok, goodnight." Kaylie responds to me flipping a page of her book.

Then I drift to sleep.

"Checkmate!" I laugh and look up to see my dad shocked.
"I didn't see that coming." he responds, "Do you want to play again."
"No, I've had enough chess for today." I say getting up and walking away to my room.

I wake up. My watch reads 1:00 am. I start to cry. Why didn't I just play one more game. I'll never be able to play chess with my dad again. I cry myself to sleep with my regrets haunting me for the rest of the night.

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A little thing I wrote that's really bad, but oh well.

Going from smiling to crying in a few seconds.

Sometimes not even knowing why there are tears. Not knowing what's wrong. Not knowing if I'm even sad.

Sometimes wondering why I'm still here. Not knowing where I've found the will to live. Not knowing if I'd die that night.

Sometimes heartbroken over whats-his-face. Not knowing if I'll ever get over him. Not knowing if he'll ever like me back.

Sometimes crying over what I've done. Not knowing how much of a horrible person I am. Not knowing how to fix it.

Sometimes missing people who I haven't seen in forever. Not knowing if it's okay to call them. Not knowing where they are, what they're doing, or if they even miss me back.

Sometimes stressed over everything. Not knowing if I'll get everything done. Not knowing if I'll be a disappointment.

Sometimes hating my appearance. Not knowing how beautiful I might actually be. Not knowing that someone out there thinks I'm perfect just the way I am.

Sometimes scared about the future and the things that haunt me from the past. Not knowing if I'll be successful in life. Not knowing if my ghost hate me.

Sometimes sadness takes over me, but I know that I'll always find a way to make. No matter what.