i returned home from the beach and i was extremely tired, i could hardly move. I walked up to my room and jumped on my bed feeling the relaxing sensation of my soft sheet set.
As i began to unwind i got into deep thought and concentration,rose and Christen's image kept popping up into my head, i have to make a choice but how could i? it would have devastated christen not to mention how it would ruin rose's self esteem and screw with her trust.
Then it struck me again, christen is a hoe and i gave rose my primise. so that only leaves the alternative of how i'd break it off with christen.
My minutes of silence and relaxation was severed by the piercing voice of my mother,her voice penetrated through the pillow i had just put over my head .she was singing and she was singing in the most a woeful tone that I've ever hard.
I ignored and it paid off, she stopped singing and my peace slowly re-entered my head space and then it hit me, i would just start an argument with christen and make it look like i broke up due to the argument.
As i stop to think i realized that christen was almost nothing to me, i fell in love with rose so much that christen merely existed in my mind.
I am so tired of everything going on i couldn't betray rose's trust, because i know it would hurt her and i know it would affect her. I still have feelings for christen and i know she feels dearly for me but i cannot do that to rose, she's too fragile am certainly not going out with christen again. i aleast want to get further into my relationship with rose. went downstairs to eat dinner and was texting zoe in the meantime, she was telling me about her holiday and how this crazy guy kissed her
''zoe wtf, dudee do you like him?'' i texted
''ofcorce i do he's totally cute and also he's the captin of the football team.''
''shut your mouth! are you kidding me?''
''no shit ty he's litt and i totally saw his sixpacks!"
"tmi yo, what are you planning to do?"
"dont know as yet but am sure to get satisfied by the end of the night..."
"ok weird...girl am out ,finishing up dinner i'll see you tommarow"
i knew the captin of the football team and he was a jerk, chad was the most despicable being i ever met ,he's in my history class and his behavior is nothing I want for my bestfriend , but for the sake of zoe's happiness am going to leave them be.
My life has sped from boring to plain exciting, I never thought that I'd be deciding between two beautiful girls yet alone actually do it. I have my mind made up and am feeling so head strong towards rose's affection that I can almost feel her. As I slipped down to the kitchen, I stole some of dad's vodka and some cranberries, if I don't drink something now I swear am gonna go crazy.
After I finished the drink I crawled back into my bed and started to gaze off into a fantasy with rose we had the most unforgettable time.
I know I said no playing with rose but a guy's got needs.
I quickly changed my underwear and fell back into bed for good this time as I feel myself go drifting further and further away from the world and into slumber.
