Martinez Twins Imagines and Preferences

We can't keep this up (Ivan)

You and Ivan have been together for a long time, about a year and 3 months. However Ivan and Emilio went back to Spain for a few months because they missed their family. Ivan told you he wouldn't be gone for more than four months. Of course you were glad that the boys were going to be able to see their family but you couldn't help but miss them, especially Ivan.

Ivan had been gone for about three months now, but he face timed you every morning when you woke up and before you went to bed. He'd also FaceTime you throughout the day, tag you in things, and call you in the middle of the night when he saw you were on the internet and knew you must not be able to sleep. Despite all of this you just missed holding him. A few times you cried to him on FaceTime but he always tried to reassure you that it'd be okay.

Of course, your relationship was not perfect. Of course you worried about him being so far away and having been hurt before you sometimes worry that he'll find someone better and leave you. Not that you don't trust him, but it's not your fault. Lately the boys have been collabing with a girl named Amalia. She was skinny, tan and gorgeous with long dark brown hair and golden highlights, and light brown eyes. She was a pretty big influencer in Barcelona, second only to the twins. Since they got there she'd been in their snapchats, YouTube videos and their music.ly. Of course you couldn't help but be a little jealous.

It was late one night when you just got home. The boys had posted a new video where they would see how well Amalia and they knew each other. You didn't know why but your heart broke when Ivan got all of the questions about her right. You turned off the video and tried to avoid the sinking feeling in your stomach. After a few hours you just couldn't anymore. You didn't want to bother Ivan with your insecurities so you texted Emilio as he was one of your best friends.

You: Hey Emilio are you busy?
Emilio: No, why?
Y: is Ivan there?
E:No, why is there something wrong?
Y: kind of. Can you call me?

Next thing you know your phone rings and you answer.

"Hey Emi" you say weakly.

"What's wrong hon," he asks concerned.

"I just don't know what to do. I love Ivan so much but this is so hard. I would walk through fire for him but he's so far away right now and I miss him so much. Maybe he'd be better off finding someone there in Spain. Maybe he'd be happier and at least they wouldn't have to work so hard to understand each other. Maybe this was a mistake." You say and start crying in the phone.

"Okay. You love Ivan right?"

"Yes" you say still in tears.

"Well he loves you too. Language does not matter. Considering you love each other so much you guys are spending so much time learning for each other. And the distance is only temporary. But I really think you should talk to Ivan about this. He can help you more than I can."

You say goodbye and hang up. It's still been three days since your phone call and you still haven't said anything to Ivan about it. You'd just got out of the shower and put on one of Ivan's big shirts that still smells like him and under wear when your FaceTime rang.

You answered to see Ivan's smiling face.

"Good morning baby" he said cheerfully, "you're awake early."

"yeah couldn't sleep last night," you say quietly. Usually you could put on a happy face for him but today you were just too exhausted and upset. You start doing your makeup and put concealer one one eye when Ivan stops you.

"Baby stop," he whines

"What?" You ask confused.

"You don't need makeup you're beautiful." He smiles expecting you to cheer up.

"Thanks" you whisper shifting to put concealer on your other eye when he stops you again.

"How long have you not been sleeping?"

"Just tonight, why?" You said casually, trying not to worry him with the face that you haven't slept in days.

"Because I think you haven't been sleeping a lot longer than that. The dark bags under your eyes are so bad baby. You need to go back to bed."

"I'm fine Ivan, seriously just leave it" you say slightly annoyed. He stays silent watching you while you finish your makeup, putting on mascara.

"You know what no. I'm not going to stop" he says gently, "we're in a relationship Y/n. I love you and I know something is wrong. You've been quieter, you text in shorter messages, you don't talk to me about my videos as much and you don't sleep. I notice when something is wrong I was just hoping that you'd trust me enough to come and talk to me about it. So what is wrong?" He says still very gently but sternly."

You drop what you're doing and look right into the screen. "That's the thing," you begin, "are we really. Are we really in a relationship. You're so far away and this is just so hard. We don't even speak the same language, so on top of all the space between us, there's a language barrier. I know we're both learning but this... this is just so hard" your voice cracks and you start to cry.

"Baby, we've talked about this before. It's only for a little while longer. I love you and I am starting to do more English and get better and so are you with Spanish. We understand at least 90% now. Things are okay." He says sadly, you can tell he's hurt by your doubts.

"Ivan I think you'd be happier with Amalia. You know everything about her, and she speaks the same language. It'd be a lot easier and you wouldn't have to work so hard. I love you but. We-"

"But?" He stops you his voice cracking as a few tears slip out.

"We can't do this anymore" you whisper sobbing.

"No, you can't do this to us. You can't leave me. Please I need you." He cries.

"Ivan" you say sadly.

"No." He says looking up at you again. "Do you love me?"

"Of course-" you say before he cuts you off.

"No more talking, just listen. I love you. You love me. I know this is hard. But I will never be happy with Amalia. The only reason why I know everything about her is because she refuses to go home. All she does is talk about herself, she doesn't know a damn thing about me and Emilio. I will never be happy with her. And I don't care about our language barrier. I'm working to get gooder"

"Better," you interrupt.

"Thanks. See you're also helping. You're the only person I want. I don't want easy I want all of you. You're little mumbles in your sleep, your messy hair when you wake up, how you hate to put on pants a home. I want you beautiful, you and how caring you are, and all of your flaws. I love you"

"I love you too but you're so far away and I just want to hold you."

"Well this was supposed to be a surprise but I'm coming home today. I'm getting on the plane later. I was going to surprise you but I'll tell you."

"Okay, I feel a lot better. I'm sorry"

"No don't be sorry. I've got to go pack but I'll see you by tomorrow. I love you darling."

"I love you too" you say and hang up the phone. That helped you a lot but you knew things would be all better when the boys were back home and you could hold Ivan.

Thanks @YOLOgirlxx for requesting I hope I did this justice 😊