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Four - Test Of Friendship

- F A W N -

I wake up to the sound of Ashton and my head throbbing from a hangover. But keep my eyes shut, I pretend to still be asleep.

". . .And it's Fawn. She looks like Lauren."

Wait. What? Who's Lauren? And I look like her? There is silence for a minute. I keep listening.

"You don't have to say anything. Silence is fine." He says.

I hear some shuffling for a bit.

"Jesus Christ, Kira! Just stop moving and enjoy the moment," Ashton says. Enjoy what moment? I want to open my eyes and see what's going on but I keep them shut and keep listening.

"Well maybe if you brushed your hair for once!" Kira says. Nobody says anything after that. I decide to take this moment to open my eyes. I flicker them open, as if I had just woken up, and position myself into a sitting position. I yawn, which makes my head throb. Stupid hangover. I look over to see Marley at my feet, sleeping and all the other boys are on the other couches. Michael and Calum are on the floor, Luke is on the other couch and Ashton's head is on Kira's lap, asleep. What!? I look at Kira and she is looking as awkward as ever. I am angry now, doesn't she know how angry and lethal he can get?

"Am I interrupting something?" I say quietly, trying not to wake up any of the boys or Marley. Kira looks down at Ashton and then at me.

"No, we were just talking." She says quietly but casually. I just shake my head.

"You must not understand that he is dangerous, Kira." I say gesturing towards Ashton. "He is lethal. He could just be buttering you up to get close. One day he might decide to put a gun to your head!"

"He won't." She says, actually cringing at the thought.

"You can't guarantee that. He's done it once," I think of when he had me at gunpoint, "he'll do it again." She just shakes her head, not believing what I'm telling her. "It's scary, Kira. Imagine if he had pulled the trigger. He was capable and willing." She bites her lip.

"He wouldn't, Fawn. He's told me things. There is a reason why he's like this." She says.

"Tell me then."

"I can't." She looks down at Ashton and purses her lips. When she says this, it hurts. We've been best friends since primary school. She's never not told me anything and it's the same with me.

"You would keep a secret from me for a guy that you've only just met? A guy that almost killed me?" I say, Ashton is testing our friendship and I don't like it.

"He didn't almost kill you, he could've killed you, and he chose not to. Take that into consideration. And yes, I will keep a very, very personal secret from you for Ashton."

"He would've killed me if the boys didn't come in and get to him somehow!" I yell. I am done with this. This pity for Ashton. All of the boys start to wake up, Ashton is awake in an instant he stares at me with sleepy eyes. "I can't believe you, Kira! You're defending him after 12 years of being best friends!" All of the boys are now awake and staring at me. I don't care. My eyes start to fill with tears, we have never really fought before, especially not over a guy.

I fling the blanket off, stand up and walk outside, all of the boys' eyes are on me. I sit on the steps that lead to the front porch and cry silently into my hands. All of this is really getting to me, mum and dad, not having a home. Everything I've known in life is eradicated. I stop myself crying and look around at the beautiful farm. There are neverending paddocks of horses, cows, sheep and chickens. I stand up and see an empty wine bottle from last night. I pick it up and hurl it into the grass ahead of me and let out a frustrated scream type of thing as I do. It hits the ground and smashes into a million pieces, hiding in the grass. I make a mental note to not let Marley near that. I keep staring at the paddocks with my clenched fist by my side and my heavy breathing. I hear small footstep and then someone hug my legs. Marley. I look down and smile. I lift her up and hug her.