My Favorite Scars

Chapter Two

-Sunday, 9/07/88, 6:30am-

| Ronny's POV |

I woke up, got up from my bed still fatigue from work, and checked the clock,
<6:30am>
Well I'm up early today, i mumbled to myself.
I went over to the kitchen and tried to make myself an acceptable breakfast.
It wasn't as good as the time Loretta cooked for me though.

Get. It. Together.
She doesn't love you anymore deal with it.

Ugh. she's the only thing in my mind now, and its only been a year!
Wow. Even this early in the morning I think of her.
I used to think about her all the time, even when I'm right beside her, I missed that feeling.
When will I move on....
I just looked at a damn picture and its making me feel this way.

Would it be a mistake to contact her?
I mean, she wouldn't mind, wouldn't she?

She was my everything,
It was my mistake to treat her as my world instead of treating her as a person.
I guess treating her that way made a huge consequence.
The consequence of pain.

What if she thinks I'm clingy?
What if she thinks im weak?
What if she knows that I still love her?
.........What if she still loves me?

Sigh, I should probably take a walk outside and get my mind off of her.
Its Sunday anyway, my only rest day, the rest of the week is just more torturous work.

Then I kept hearing a familiar voice scream my name while walking...

"RONNY!"
Turns out it was just Johnny.
"Johnny? I thought you were back home with ma?"
"Listen, Ron, I gave you the chance to marry the girl we both loved and you just wasted it like that?"
"Are you really bringing that up just now? That was a year ago, wake up. And also, why are you here?"
"I'm here to sort things out with you and Loretta. I didn't give you the chance for nothing Ron!"
"One, do you really think she's that 'forgiving' type of girl? Two, I'm still mad at you for cutting my hand off, douchebag."
"Ok, ok, I get it, you're still mad at me but-"
"JOHNNY. SHE. WON'T. COME. BACK."

I tried to walk away from him but he just kept bugging me.

"Look, Ron, I know you still love her."
"And what makes you think that eh?"
"I'm your brother, and I can already tell from your voice that you miss her."
"you're right, you're an annoying f*ck, but you're right!"
"Wow. I forgot how short-tempered you are. Well good luck with her then! Seems like you could do this on your own."

He tried to make a scene by walking away but i stopped him and playfully blocked his way

"No, Nope, you have to help me,
Please?"
"Ah I knew you'd do that Ron, you're too predictable."
"Shut up and please get this woman with me."
"Alright, alright, so did you try talking to her recentl-"
"Lets go over to my apartment first. Its freezing out here."

We walked over to the bakery and went up the stairs, where my apartment was.

Johnny removed his coat and placed it on the chair beside the couch,

"You live here?"
"Yeah, not as great as yours but it is acceptable for me."

We both sat beside each other on the couch,