Dear diary, 20 July, 2016 "Life could be so much dreadful that you start feeling suffocating and even worthless if you don't have that person in your life that you loved whole heartily. Something like that happened with me a few months ago when my favorite person left me or I may rather say that I had to leave her because it was getting difficult for me to survive like this, without her. Our destiny might me different but we both were standing on the same platform, waiting for a non-existing train to take us away from this situation we were in. I never had this feeling before for any other girl. I mean not this kind of special one, the one realizing that I have a reason to live for a beautiful reason. But, as I said that our destinies were different and always had something else for both of us. I fell for her heels on head when she was already stolen by someone whom she can never forget. We both suffered, we both stayed indifferent, we were friends and never became more than that." I often talk to my diary like this when I feel suffocated. Sharing stuffs makes you feel normal again and forgetting a few more memories of you past that keeps on interacting with you and never let you be subtle. Well it was all about just one single girl I was in love with my whole heart. The one who is beautiful, charming, sleek and lovable. The one nobody could hate or resist to fulfil her wishes, I gave my heart to her, to Anusha. She was a junior to me when we first met on Facebook (yeah, it's a socio-pathetic love). When we meet someone we usually don't guess that this girl or guy will be that special one we want to spend our whole life with but, the very first day I saw her, moving across the staircase of school, thinking about something tensed, beautiful. I was able to sense her presence around as I was waiting for her to come. The air surrounding her were moving the strands of her shiny black hairs on her charming face and the way she settled them behind her ear was something that I cannot describe I words. I once and for all fell for her. Talking about some unpredictable and lovable incident I still remember what happened next to that. While she was walking through staircase and then through the corridor, looking at her footsteps, I was busy starting her. I was pretty much mesmerized by her that I started feeling disconcerted and with a sudden thought of greeting her a Good morning I jumped from nowhere straightly in front of her and she might have felt it this sudden action an ambush. She looked at me with those beautiful eyes and turned on her heels. At first I thought 'how rude she is! ' but, later I realized that I was worthy having such expression from anyone if I may do such actions. For the whole day I was glaring at her, her looks, hairs. I pretended as if I was just passing from their classroom but the truth was known to me only. But everything is different now. The same person I loved with my whole heart is lying on the bed in front of my eyes. Still, sick, pale and dying. I don't who hit her with his car but that really killed my Anu. I was reading on my room when a call came to me from Anu. She was excited that finally she got the entrance in best fashion designing college, we talked for some twenty minutes and I finally asked her to hang up as she was damn excited and I was not the only person she have to tell this awesome news. She finally hung up saying me bye. It was not too long when I received a call from her again. I shook my face and a childish smile came over my face. I picked up the call and said, "I told you na Anu, telling me everything won't work so, you must first go and give this good news to your parents. They will be proud of you and.....". "Hello?" an unidentified feminine voice interrupted me. Whoever she was, she was terrified. "Hello? Are you Yash?" that feminine voice said again. "Yes, I am Yash. Who's this?" I asked in little nervousness. I thought this is one of those frank from Anu's Friends but, I didn't felt good because of the way that feminine voice speak. Terrified, breathing fast, as she have seen a ghost, or someone dying. "Forget about me, the girl who owes this phones has met an accident with a car and she is really bleeding a lot." That feminine voice said. That sentence was nothing less than the bomb that America dropped on Hiroshima & Nagasaki. I was stoned. "Helllloooow?" that terrified voice again took my attention. "Can you hear me? She asked. "Ye - Yes. I can hear you. Tell me where did this happen? Where is she?" I asked stuttering due to fear. "We are near Apex Circle and we are taking her to Narayana Hospital as it is nearest. Are you her brother? Can you inform her family" she asked me this time but, I wasn't actually listening to her. "Hello, can you inform her family?" she almost shouted and this time I came out of my seizure. "Yes, Yes, I am just informing others. Please take her to the hospital as soon as possible am leaving and will be there in ten minutes." I said in melancholy and hung up the call.
