Whore

Chapter 3

•Beauty is pain and there is beautify in everything. What's a little bit of hunger? I can go a little while longer. •

I walked into the local star bucks and saw my gorgeous little girl, Alex. She looked just the way she did when I last saw her. Liam had put her brown curly hair in two pigtails. She looked adorable as always. As soon as she saw me she ran straight into my arms. "Mummy" she screamed. I missed the feeling of her little body up against mine. I just wanted to hold her forever and never let her go.

"Hey bub" I smiled into her hair. Gosh I missed her so much, I haven't seen her in a month.  A whole month. Now, I know that it doesn't seem like long but when you are a mother it feels like a whole year without seeing your child and it's tourcher. We walked over to our booth were Liam was waiting.

"Morning" I smiled at him "missed this" I leaned my head against his shoulder as we watched Alex drink her strawberry smoothy that Liam got her before I came. It was her favourite and you could tell by the way she was getting it all around her lips. I think she got more on her face then in her mouth.

"Me too" Liam grabbed my hand and kissed the back of my palm. I looked down at my small and cold fragile hand in his large warm one. We were really close, we wanted Alex to know that we do love each other just in a different way most parents do. We love each other as friends. I utterly adore Liam and everything that he does for Alex. He deserves the father of the year award.

"How have you been?"

"Good ?" I asked confused with Liam's small talk, neither of us were really ones for small talk. Did he want to ask me something important?. "You?"

I smiled as I looked over Alex, I can't even put into words how much I missed her. It kind of makes me feel like a shit mum with how uninvolved I have been with her life. 

"Yea, well work is getting stressful and it's a lot of work with Alex and now my boss.."

"I want more involvement with Alex" I blurted out cutting Liam off randomly. I hated only seeing her every now and then. I want to see her everyday, hug her everyday. Be the mother that I know I can be.

"What ?" He asked confused.

"Look, I knew that I haven't been the best mum ever but I do love her and I just realized that I don't spend much time with her, I am her mother for fucks sake I should see her everyday and tell her that I love her everyday" I looked at Liam pleadingly.

"Ok" Liam nodded "but we will need to work on things so this works out, if you really want to see her more. We will have to move into the same house if you want to see her everyday though" I sigh in relief, I thought that for some reason Liam might not let me have more involvement in Alex's life. Liam has always let me see Alex when ever I want so I don't know why I thought that he would do that to me.

"Yea, you can come stay with me, I am staying with Chloe's boyfriend. I am sure he won't mind" I smile, I can't wait I really want to be more apart of Alex's life.

"I thought you aren't friends with Chloe anymore?" He frowned. I always told Liam everything, even though he had never met Chloe, Liam knew about her.

"Yea, we are now. She said sorry and so did I. Now we are all good again" I smiled at getting my best friend back, even if it did take a couple of years.

"After four years?" Liam raised his eyebrow. Ok so I may have forgotten to mention we ignored each other for four years. What ? We are both stubborn. We got into the major fight in our last year of school when we were both 18. Now four years later, Chloe and I are 22 and friends again. It's true though time does heal.