Wabe: Another Lover

Windclaws POV 2 (PT 2)

"Hello Lucifer, I thought you had gone good." I said, leaning against the podium. "Well, it's pleasant to have you back. How is Gabriel? How is Aliza? Did you have your wedding yet?" I tried to not flinch as I realized I had said Gabe's name. Not only that but I had used his full name instead of the nickname I used to always call the archangel I had loved with all my being.

"well. Gabe is fine. He's moved on. Him and Sam are being way to lovey. I swear I sometimes wanna smite myself." he teased knowing Gabe would be blushing "Aliza is still as beautiful as ever. My beautiful Aliza. And yes we have gotten married. Ah. What a wonderful wedding. She decided to throw cake in my face so it was great. And if your wondering. Jackson and Eliza have also kinda moved on. Eliza now has a girlfriend and Jackson can talk and won't stop talking. I swear that little boy has no clue what the meaning of being quiet is."

"Well that's good. Oh, and Gabriel, you may come out of the shadows. Just because it's been five years doesnt mean my spirit doesn't recognize your essence." I said, my dull eyes turning to where Gabe was hiding. It had taken me a while to finally recognize his spirit, but when it did I felt myself shatter more.

"if your going to kill me then go ahead. I couldn't care less. I've lost everything twice now, I'd rather be dead then living in this pathetic world" I said casually. "Of course, if you dont want to I'd be more than happy to kill myself." then there was a squeal at the very back of the audiance.

"Papa!" jackson squealed, the crowd parting for the little boy I had somehow given birth to 5 years ago, only a few months before Gabe and I had broken apart. Gabe darted over and picked up Jackson. I watched as Jackson squirmed out of Gabes grasp and run over to me and hugged my leg. The memories I had buried so deep came flooding back. My eyes gleamed once as I started to tear up.

"Jackie...." I muttered, sounding sad as I looked at my child that hugged my leg.

"see what you have done! Jackson... Your father left us. Why would you want hi back?" Gabe asked.

"Papa is better than you ever will be!" jackson snapped at GAbe, hugging my leg tighter "Papa, tell them you didnt mean it! Come back papa please!? I dont want that meanie Sam! I want you papa!" Jackson pleaded with me.

"Jackie..." I knelt down and hugged him, tears streaming down my cheeks as I remembered everything.

"Jackie I'm so sorry." I cried. I wish I had never given them up. I wish I wasn't such a mess, I wish I could take it all back. I loved my family with all my heart, having my son in my arms at that moment was one of the happiest moments in my life. The one thing that would've topped it off would've been if Gabe had taken me back, but I knew deep down there was no chance of that after everything I had done wrong. Then Gabe fell to his knees, crying. Eliza ran over to him and glared at me.

"Gabriel was better than you EVER were. SAM is better than you." She growled. I looked at them and stood up.

" I didn't break this family. I wrote to you Gabe, I wrote you everyday for a whole year. 365 letters, and I never got one reply." I said, tears still falling from my cheeks. "I waited every day, hoping I would get some kind of reply, even if that reply was that you hated me. But getting nothing hurt more than thinking you hated me. 365 letters, a whole year of letters and I got nothing."

"he burned the letters. And I helped, it hurt him. He didn't want to see any of them. He would always sit there. Crying and saying things that I won't dare mention in front of a five year old. But he thought every damn letter was one of you taunting him. He soon became this she'll of what he once was. Then Sam came. Sam actually didn't leave him or say that he basically hated dad. He stayed! I LOVE SAM BETTER THAN YOU!! HE DIDNT RIP MY FATHERS HEART APART'!! SO DAMN YOU!! DAMN YOU TO HELL! I FUCKING HATE YOU!! " Eliza yelled at me.