'Why did I agree to this?' I looked in the mirror and sighed, sliding a hairgrip into my hair. Seeing Luke on stage tonight is only going to bring back memories. "I can't do this" I took one last glance in the mirror before slipping into my converse, grabbing my bag and phone and leaving to walk to Chantelle's. My mind began to wander as my footsteps began to move in a constant rhythm. "Would Luke have changed" "How would i react". These thoughts stayed in my mind until i was brought back down to earth.
"Brooke. Brooke!" Caitlyn called as i turned around.
"Caitlyn!"
"I'm so glad you decided to come in the end."
"I couldn't let you down now could I?" I grinned. "Now lets go, Chantelle we're supposed to be meeting Chantelle in like 5 minutes."
We continued the rest of the way to Chantelle's house. When we walked down the front path to the door Chantelle opened almost immediately hugged us and then dissapeared, only to reappear with a huge grin on her face and the tickets in her hand. "Come on guys, lets go."
The three of us walked to the bus stop with huge smiles on our faces, chatting all the way. After about half an hour we arrived at the venue and began queueing.
"It's freezing" Caitlyn complained, pulling the sleeves of her jacket down over her hands and crossing her arms.
"You shouldn't have worn shorts," i laughed "It's the middle of winter"
We joked around for about an hour until the doors finally opened and the whole queue started cheering. The atmosphere was incredible, and I actually began to feel excited.
Once we got inside we started singing and dancing as the opening act performed. Then that was it, the lights dimmed and the whole room shook with the vibration of the speakers and screaming. 5 Seconds Of Summer walked on stage. "Back in highschool, we used to take it slow. Red lipstick on and high-heeled stilletto's..." Caitlyn turned to face Chantelle and I before grabbing our wrists and pulling us forwards into a space in the crowd. The night continued and i found myself dancing and singing along as 5 Seconds Of Summer sung various songs and chatted to the crowd.
"We'd just like to take a moment to thank you all for your love and support, we coudn't have got where we are now with out you." Ashton shouted over the squeals.
"And that's why we'd like to perform a brand new song off the album." Calum added
"This song is written about a certain someone I used to know" Luke smiled sadly, the twinkle gone from his eyes
"And this is the first time we've performed it live so we hope you guys love it"
The crowd errupted with cheers while my heart sunk. Luke had looked so broken when he spoke.
Michael strummed his guitar and Calum began to sing "I drove by all the places we used to hang out getting wasted" I smiled taking in the lyrics, it was such a beautiful but sad, song that brought back memories. I waved my arms in time to the song,
Then it was Luke's verse
"It's hard to hear your name,
When I haven't seen you in so long,
It's like we never happened, was it just a lie?
It what we had was real how could you be fine?
Cause i'm not fine at all"
As i stood there was a lump in my throat and a tear rolled down my cheek. I wiped it away quickly so that Caitlyn and Chantelle wouldn't see,
"And the dreams you left behind you didn't need them,
"like very single wish we ever made"
I couldn't hold the tears back anymore, they rolled down my cheeks and I knew i had to get out.
"Brooke, Brooke! Are you okay? Where are you going?" Chantelle called, struggling to be heard over the crowd.
I struggled to pass inbetween people until i was finally able to rush out of the door at the back of the room. I could feel people watching be in confusion but didn't dare turn back, instead i locked myself inside a toilet cubicle. I stayed there slumped against the door with my head in my hands for at least an hour, In that time Caitlyn and Chantelle had came to check up on me countless times but i refused to speak to them. I knew I was overreacting but I just wanted to be alone.
I finally took a deep breath, and built up the courage to go back inside after standing up and brushing the dust from my jeans. Reluctantly i edged my way through the crowd back to the girls, Chantelle immediately started fussing over me and asking if I was okay. I knew I couldn't lie to her.
"Luke and I used to date" I mumbled, my voice cracking.
"What did you say" Chantelle struggled to be heard.
"Luke and I used to date. We haven't seen eachother in two years and the lyrics to that song were just to much for me" I shouted. "Please don't tell Caitlyn, i'm not ready for her to know yet. You know how she is about 5 Seconds Of Summer."
"I don't know how long you're going to be able to keep it from her, she's bound to find out"
"That's what i'm afraid of"
