L.O.V.E (1): All I Want Is You

Chapter 13

Grace P.O.V:

Justin and I  walked in awkward silence to the private place I said I'd take him too.

He was going to tell me something very dark and private. And to be honest I was being hypocritical with him.

I was hiding something from him not because I was embarrassed or ashamed but because I was broken and that the thought of letting someone in and them leaving me always killed me and didn't need to be relived again.

I like 'like' Justin so much that I want to tell him but what would happen if he broke me. I would never be the same.

I've never been the same since he left.

I led the way, below a hill you could see the moon glistening across the pond. We walked closer still in silence. All I could hear is my nervous breathing and the walking of Justin at my side.

Once, we got closer to the pond. I took Justin's hand to pull him to a place to sit. In the corner of my eye I could see Justin smiling at me.

We both sat down.

Taking in the surroundings around us. I profoundly breathed in and cuddled my jacket to my body.

"Grace"

"Yeah Justin"

"I really need to explain this to you. I'm really sorry I never explained it to you before. I never wanted to drag you into this. Just let me explain and I completely understand if it's too much for you and you want to leave"

I nodded

"Okay.. It happened when I was 13. I was just moving to Atlanta to start my music career. I met this girl called Amber 4 years before that. We were best friends that turned into lovers. I loved her so much.. It got to the point where we had sex. I left after that for Atlanta. We broke up then because I found out she was sleeping with someone else. 9 months later I got a call saying that I needed to go back to Canada. Amber died while giving birth to Hannah. She had put my name on the birth certificate. I don't know where the other guy she slept with is. He never showed. I guess he never knew"

There was silence as I took everything he said in.

"Why didn't you ever have a DNA test?"

He looked surprised that I cared and listened to everything he said.

"Amber never gave a DNA sample she always refused. So I don't know. Her doctors don't tell me much.. I pleaded but they just said that I was the father. I was scared. Ashamed. Lonely. I wanted to start a new life but once I looked at Hannah I knew I had to be the best father to her. She always stays with my mum but I always come home to see her. She understands I'm busy but I love to be with her. Her smile lights up my world and makes me so proud to be he father. I never told anyone this and I intend on keeping this a secret from the media. If they found out, she'd never have a normal life and she won't have the childhood she deserves"

"Justin.. That's.."

I thought about my dad. He was never there. I could feel my eyes getting heavy.

My dad would take me swimming but that was probably for a different reason from what I intended. I could see Justin loved Hannah and looked at her with such pure adoration that no one could ever replace between a father and daughter.

It was time. I never thought l'd tell him. He was telling me his biggest secret that he hasn't told anyone to. I wanted to be honest with him because he was being so honest to me.

We're best friends of course?

"Justin"

He noticed the tears trickling down my face and put his hand on my waist and pulled me closer to him.