Diary Of A Pessimist

I Ain't an open book

I wish I could tell
The secrets I hide,
The fears I fight,
The the tears I wipe,
But I've no one by my side
To tell what and how
I feel,
To show my wounds
which don't heal,
To share the problems
Which I deal.

And I think it's okay
to be alone
But the cruelty is that
I ain't fully alone
I have many people
in my life
They're all existing
here and there
But they keep stabbing
my back with a knife
they show that they care
But they don't even dare
To be here
when I need them
I never ask for pearls and gem
I just need them
To be my side
Cause I don't wanna hide
The tears I wipe
The fears I fight
The pain I hide