Diary Of A Pessimist

New Year's eve

I'm standing here in the balcony,
Full of rose plants you grew for me.
It's new years eve and you're not here,
And I'm getting flash backs of last new year,

Those memories are wandering in my heart.
All these pretty city lights yet It seems so dark.
I wish you knew how much I really cared for you
If you only knew how crazily I'm in love with you.

These dried tears, my horrible fears.
Are telling me that my life's end is near.

I loved the way how you holded me in your arms.
I wish I could've paused that moment of serene & calm.
You were my everything, maybe you still are
But that wound on my heart left its scar

I loved you so much, maybe I still do
I hate the way your absense is holding me in blue
I need your love and you didn't even gave me your time,
I feel like if I'm in prison cause loving you was a crime.