Shourtney Vol. 1

Alone

Courtney

When I fist saw the new guy I couldn't help but stutter like a moron, but he did as well so it's ok. I could feel my face burning like the sun, but I didn't care he was gorgeous. He looked like he had everything going for him. New job, probably has a healthy relationship with his girlfriend, there's nothing wrong or even remotely bad about him. He's perfect in every way. He's handsome, kind, sweet, he's a heart throb. I don't even know his last name and I'm already in love with him, but he probably already has a girlfriend and wouldn't batter an eyelid at the thought of me.

Shayne

Wow. Courtney is hands down the prettiest girl I've ever met. The thing is, I need to get my shit together. I got a job yes, but I live like an hour away in L.A. traffic. It's probably quicker to walk then drive. I need to move closer. I'm not in the right place to be buying a house right now though. Ohh well. One thing at a time I guess.

I noticed that I was still locked in Courtney's green eyes and holding her hand. I quickly let go and looked to Noah to see what we needed to do for today. When I let go I felt like I was missing something like a part of me went away. I ignored it and carried on.

"So what're we doing today?" I ask turning to Noah for a answer.

"Well we're going out to lunch if you wanna come." Noah offered.

"I'm not too hungry. I think I'll stay here and get myself associated with everyone. But thanks for the offer." I politely decline.

"Yeah I'm not hungry either. I'll show him around." Courtney pitched in her with a smile that made my heart start to pound.

"Alright see you two in an hour or two." Kieth said as the three left leaving just Courtney and I alone.

"Sooo..." I say breaking the silence that had filled the room.

"Yeah?" Courtney asked quietly.

"Tell me about yourself." I answer not knowing what to say at this point.

"Well my full name is Courtney Ruth Miller, I'm 20, and....single?" She whispered at the end.

"What?" I laugh feeling like she was joking.

"Nothing!" She shot back trying to hide her face getting red.

"Did I hear what I think I heard? Is the beautiful Courtney freaking Miller single?" I say taking advantage of her vulnerability.

She gave the slightest nod.

"Wow. I was sure that you would have a boyfriend." I answer with a chuckle.

"My boyfriend just broke up with me." She says as she buries her head between her knees.

"What is he a fucking moron? Or just plain blind to not see how amazing of a human you are." I ask trying to be as cool as possible not making it seem like I was hitting on her.

She laughed and got up from the couch and walked over to my desk. She gave me a hug and I felt completely safe and complete. I finally knew what true happiness felt like. She made me happy and like a drug I was addicted to her.

When she let go I pulled her tighter and squeezed her torso and from somewhere I started to cry.

Courtney

Shayne pulled me tighter and I thought I was going to fall into him. I was surprised to feel him slightly jerking with tears falling down his defined cheeks. His strength gave me goosebumps. His tight gasp lessened just enough for me to get down to his level and I hugged him back.

"What's wrong? Why are you crying?" I asked in a whisper to his ear.

"It's just that last week I didn't know if I wanted to live anymore. I was fired from my other job and my girlfriend dumped me. I honestly thought about doing it. Then Noah called. He said that there was a job opening and he wanted me to take a stab at it. The reason I went was because he said that there was someone he thought that I'd really like. So I went." He answered between several deep breaths.

It was hard for me to see someone so strong be so weak at the same time. It broke my heart. I reached and cupped his face and forced him to look at me.

"Listen. I know what it's like to want to give up. Let me tell you why my boyfriend broke up with me. So I was having a really good day I had just gotten this job. I get a call from my boyfriend and he told me that we were finished. He said he didn't have feelings anymore. I had to go to his house to get my stuff. I went inside and there he was with a different girl. I can still see the way she kissed him. It made me want to never talk to another guy ever again. It took about three weeks for me to be able to go anywhere besides my house, Olivia's house, or the Smoffice. I spent most of my time here in the silence. Shit. I haven't started going anywhere until yesterday and where am I now. Talking to you." I say trying to cheer Shayne up.

"Thanks Courtney. I needed that." He said as he started to cry again.

"If it's ok. Can I ask why you wanted to take your own life?" I ask lightly knowing that I was walking on fresh wounds.

"I was at home since I lost my job and my girlfriend burst through the door and just went off like a gun. She said that I was a waste of space and I should do something with my poor excuse of a life. She said to never talk to her ever again and she grabbed her stuff and threw her keys at me." He said as he lifted his shirt to reveal a noticeable cut on his chest.

"That was several weeks ago. I tried to find a job but no one ever got back to me. I tried several Tinder dates and they fell through as well. I started to go insane from the silence of my apartment. That wasn't even the worst part. The worst part was the night. The dreams. If I could call them dreams. I would always find myself locked in a small room with nothing but a hanging noose, a chair, and a 45 magnum. There was nothing else. I would stay as far away as possible but every night it got closer and closer. The day before the call I was sitting in the chair with the gun in my hand. I planned it out and wrote a note and everything. If nothing changed I was going to do it." Shayne was straight balling now not holding anything back.

"I'm sorry...shhhhh..I'm here for you." I hug him and rub my hand along his back trying to calm him down.

I was facing the door when it opened I saw the rest of the Squad standing there and I motioned to Noah to head out. He got the message and quietly grabbed a notebook and wrote 'We're gonna film we'll see you guys later.' I nod and Noah silently closes the door.

I kept comforting Shayne and I thought about kissing him for the longest time. I thought that it'd cheer the both of us up. I slowly moved my hands back to his cheeks and pulled him back up to look at me. His eyes were red and puffy but his bright blue eyes still shown through. I slowly pulled him closer and our lips met like galaxies colliding. I'd never felt so happy in my life he made me complete he filled the holes in my heart. I wanted to make him happy and nothing could take that away from me. From us.

I slowly kissed him hoping that he felt the same as I did. I closed my eyes and savored each and every moment wishing that they'd never end. When I stopped to catch my breath I could feel that my lips were swollen, not a lot, but enough for me to notice. I looked back to Shayne who was in a trance looking at me. I loved him. I haven't  know him for a full day and I already love him. He's the best thing that's ever happened to me.