Jade's POV
She was gone. My happiness was gone forever and there was nothing I could do about it. I was on the bathroom floor, feeling the hot tears run down my cheeks as I prayed with all of my being that she would come to comfort me like she usually did, rubbing my back and whispering to me that it was all going to be okay. It had been yet another night without her arms around me. Another night without the feeling of her lips against mine. My head spun out of control, the thought of never seeing Perrie again haunting me. I remember on nights like these, she would hold me until the tears stopped. She would tell me, "Why is my baby crying? Does Pezza need to hurt someone?" The thought made me smile, but with her voice ringing in my ears, is was so difficult to smile for a full three seconds. The funeral was hell for me. Seeing her angelic body laying in that casket broke me once and for all. Her eyes would never open. I wouldn't see those crystal blue eyes looking back at me every again.
I called Jesy and Leigh Anne, thankful that they picked up the phone.
"Jade? Are you ok?" Jesy asked frantically over the phone. I could hear Leigh's voice in the background, so I tried to speak loud enough for her to hear too.
"Please come over. I can't be alone tonight. I-I can't stop thinking about h-her, Jesy. S-She's gone and she's n-never coming back." I spoke through the phone, my voice cracking and stuttering.
"We're on our way babe. Hang tight." she said quickly, hanging up. I put down my phone, and stared at my reflection in the toilet water. I was a mess. My makeup was extremely smudged, and my face was paler than usual. I didn't want Perrie to be gone. She was my everything. My girlfriend. My best friend. My future wife..
I could hear her voice in my mind, saying, "Stay strong, my princess. Don't let this get you down."
I wanted to tell her I loved her just one more time. Just to hold her close for one more minute..
She was gone forever, buried 6 feet underneath the Earth, away from my grasp. She was buried with the promise ring I gave her three months ago. It was my promise to make her happy. My promise to call her mine until the ends of time. At least now I know that my promise is safe with her..
I heard knocking on the door, so I wiped my face clean, and trudged downstairs to open the door for the girls. I opened it, and immediately, I was engulfed by the biggest hug ever. Jesy and Leigh didn't even bother coming in.
"I love you girls so much.." I said quietly, hugging them tight.
"We love you more, Jadey. Can we come in?" Leigh asked, shivering from the cold weather.
"Yes, of course, come in." I said, letting them into my flat.
They put their things down, and gazed around the living room. Perrie's things still hung around, making it seem like she was still here.
"Leigh and I brought a bunch of movies, snacks, and blankets. Wanna have a sleepover?" she asked with a smile. I smiled, and nodded. Leigh squealed with excitement, and unpacked the bag that was in her arms, which contained movies, and my favorite biscuits. These girls really knew how to cheer me up..
Later that night, we all went up to the terrace to watch the stars. It was about midnight, which was when the stars shine the brightest.
"We love you, baby. We know you're in a better place now." I said aloud, hoping she could hear me. Jesy and Leigh hugged me again, and it blocked the cold breeze that blew through.
And I could've sworn I heard Perrie's soft "I love you.."
Anddddd this made my cry. I don't even know how I wrote this omfg ;(
