Whats Your Ship?-Shoey Fanfic

Chapter 12-What Just Happened?

Joey's POV

I slammed the door shut and walked down the driveway. I had left everything back in the apartment; my keys, jacket, wallet. The only thing I had on me was my phone. I didn’t have enough heart to walk back in so I just kept walking to who knows where. I had possibly just pushed the love of my life away from me. Stupid. Stupid. Stupid. Why do I have to be such a fool?! Why do I have to push everyone away that only wants to help me?! My life has just been going downhill and it's all my fault. I always push away, the people that care about me. I always make myself believe that no one cares about me. In all honesty, I love Shane; I absolutely love him but I don’t want him to be hurt. So I should just leave him.

I gathered my thoughts and started heading down the street. I didn’t really know this area so I just hiked along the road. Turning left down this street, right down another. It took a while but I had finally found a familiar street and started moving towards home base.

I got home around 2 in the afternoon, considering all of the walking I had done. I opened the door to see Sawyer sitting on the couch with a couple of other girls. I gave off a pathetic smile, trying to play is all off, but I guess it didn’t really work; because Sawyer then asked the girls to leave and came over to comfort me. 

My hair was a mess and my eyes were swollen red from all of the crying I had done. As soon as he had 'kicked' the girls out of our apartment, he came over and put an arm around my shoulder. "Hey, hey, hey" he said as I was about to cry once again, "what happened? c'mon buddy you can tell me."

"I-I....I messed it.... all up-up" I said trying to compose myself. Sawyer had no idea what I was talking about so of course I had to explain everything that had happened in the past few days. It took about an hour, and lots of warm tea to catch up to the present time. "...and Caroline's probably mad at me because I haven’t been responding to her or talking to her very much."

"Well, did you ever try to contact to her after last night?" Sawyer questioned. 

"No"

"Well do you like her?" he asked. It took me a few seconds to think and actually come up with an answer.

"Yeah...."

"Then go to her. Look, I get that you're upset about Shane and all but if you like this girl, a lot, then just move on. I know it will be hard but hey. It might be worth it. You might find a better life with her than anyone else" he insisted. I spotted the proud look of expression on his face and agreed with his response. 

"Yeah, I guess you're right." I mumbled. I took off the blanket wrapped around me, wiped my face free of tears, and moved the cup away from me giving me room to get up. "Thanks a lot Sawyer. I really needed that." I said whilst giving him a hug. 

"No problem Joey. If you need anything, just come and find me. I'll always be there for you." he stated. Sawyer then walked off to his room while I searched my pocket for my phone. I pulled it out and started to text Caroline:

"Hey. I'm so sorry that I haven’t texted you a lot. I've been busy BUT I have cleared up a spot in my schedule for us to actually hang out. So, if you would like to, we could go out to one of my favorite spots on Sunset Boulevard. good idea?". (I got a reply instantly)

"Yeah, of course. But you have to answer me this. Is this a date?" It took me a few seconds to actually think of my intentions with this girl but I had to reply.

"Yeah! :) I mean, if you want it to be ;)"

"I would love that :D"

"Good! Be ready by 8:00 tonight. I'll pick you up"