Dictionary of thoughts

A- Antagonistic

Is it that I'm too nice,
Is it that I'm loud,
Is it that I'm defenseless at times,
Whatever it is can someone tell me,

Is there something about me that causes people to repel positive vibes away from me,
It's like I carry this dark aura around my body,
I feel like I'm a foreigner from the enemy country,

My behavior is very foolish in many ways,
I'm not the brightest person,
I am loquacious and childish,
But what I am not is dumb or retarded,

I can reassure you I didn't make it to the ninth grade with a lack of intellectual knowledge,
It's like they've known me for four years and still judge me by my behavior,

Is the mind of another judged by their work or the conduct they display,
If so then this world isn't for me,
My real knowledge is in my studies,
Not in the way I act,

I wouldn't be surprised if that's how I am judged in this society,
I've seen albino kids get called ugly without even a glimpse into their personality,
I've seen caucasian people get called racist without one comment being said,
I've seen black people get called nigger without them once picking a piece of cotton,

We judge on the things that don't matter,
That don't interpret the knowledge we carry in our minds,
We judge on the thing that are not and should not determine our future,
We judge on the things that separate us,

What separates you from me,
Me from you,
And the whole world from each other,
We divide each other on things that are not important,
We judge our selves on why we are even important.