Distance, Determination & Undwindling Love.

The Finale.

It was 7th November, 2024 today, and tomorrow was my birthday. It was my 24th birthday and the 8th anniversary of mine and Gauri's relationship. I had been away from her since an year now. Priya, Karan, Ranveer, Samir, Reema, Sania all had flown down from India to my home here in London. They wanted to spend my 24th birthday with me, since there was no Gauri this year with me. All of them had arranged a small house party for me, and had invited neighbors, relatives and anyone who was willing to come. I loved my best friends for their efforts.This was going to be my second consecutive birthday when Gauri wasn't there with me. It was 11.55pm and I was 5 minutes away from turning 24. I turned to the God idols at my home and began,

"Thank you God, Thanks for Everything. I have never thanked you for all that you have given me. I have always asked you for things whenever in need, and never returned to thank you for the same. Tahnk you God for giving me my family, my friends, my job and above them all thank you for bringing Gauri into my life this very day 8 years back. I have missed her a lot since the past one year. You separated us, you made our smooth-going relationship a long distance one. That too the one without any communication. This isn't fair God. I cant stand it anymore. Please get me my Gauri back. Enough of this distance and shit. I wont ask for anything more. Please"

The pople who had arrived for my party, started with the birthday song, it was 12am and I was 24 by age now. I was desperate to listen Gauri's voice sing the birthday song for me, Another birthday had now passed, and she was absent. People came and hugged me, gave me gifts. But my heart had this different and unexplainable feeling all of a sudden. My heart started beating fast. The adrenaline rush was on a new high. I dont know why but I felt butterflies in my stomach. I knew this feeling. Yes, I knew it clearly. I had felt like this when I had seen Gauri seated at the window seat of the blue van for the very first time.I was sure something was going to happen soon. My sould had turned happy and excited all of a sudden.

People were munching in delicacies by now, and busy in talking to each other. I had my eyes set n the door. I wanted that door to open out of magic, and see Gauri come inside. Wow, that would have been such an amazing feeling!!

"Hey dude, you seem happy finally , what is up?" Priya asked

"Listen, I am getting this strong feeling that something good is going to happen soon with me. I just don't exactly know what!"

"Oh man! Wow! I hope it has got something to do with Gauri coming back into your life.Its been an year now, she must have also missed you as hell. You both haven't seen each other since an year.

"Yes, I miss..." as I was about to finish, the doorbell rang, someone opened the door and behind the door stood GAURI, looking at me. Into my eyes.

Everyone looked at her with amazement. We were all seeing her after an year And more importantly, 1 year without any contact, of her whereabouts. We were all shocked. She looked just as she looked an year back. I noticed her, luster filled eyes, looking at me. She stared right into me. Just like a hunter looking at his prey. I didn't now of any way to react. I was pretty numb, almost frozen at my place. My hands turned cold, I felt light headed. I was seeing her as she stood right in front of me now. No one spoke a word. There filled utter silence in the room. If a pin would have had dropped, it would have echoed hard into our ears. My parents came closer, as everyone had their ears cleaned. We were all looking forward to some dumb excuse for her adventures over the past year.

I was beaming with happiness in my mind, but I exhibited anger on my face. I wanted Gauri to tell me why the hell had she been so heartless while choosing her pact? Why had she played with emotions over the last 1 year? Why had she never replied to my E-mails despite reading all of them? Had all the emotions inside her died? Had she become a stone hearted girl to overlook my pain? I wanted every answer!! Right there!

She began, "I know all of you must be willing to kill me with a knife now, but listen to me. Before forming your own judgments over what I had done, and why had I done it? Please, let me clear my side first. Let us start from the very beginning. One year back, when Arjun had called me one afternoon to tell me he was promoted and had been asked to shift to London, I was going to ask him to cancel the promotion there and then. But he asked me to meet me at night at his home, and I agreed, cause I knew I would reject his proposal at his home, and he would not go. I never wanted him to go, I wanted him to stay. That same afternoon, I got a call too. Not an ordinary call, A call which was going to change my life forever. I had never wanted to become a marketing executive. I loved adventures, and wanted to serve the Indian Government In any possible way. And to compensate for my passion, I had given an interview at RAW(Research And Analysis Wing), the primary foreign intelligence agency of India. I had always dreamt to have such a job where thrill was involved. That afternoon, I had got a call to tell me that I was selected on merit, and I had an assignment on which the Government wanted to send me, on the very first day, if I was willing. I immediately said YES, cause that was my dream. When you work for RAW, you cant tell it to the public that you work there. And I was bounded not to tell anyone. And that was the first and primary reason, I gave up all my social media accounts, my contact numbers and had shifted out of my apartment in Mumbai, and went to New Delhi to the RAW. Life was at its full pace. I was asked to go on a assignment which required me to come here in London, very close to Arjun. I could have had said no, cause I didn't dare to face him after what I had told him, but I accepted the proposal. Since the last one year Arjun, I have been staying just 7 blocks away from you, and not 7 oceans apart. My assignment came to an end just 2 months back, but coming to you immediately after it got over wasn't also an option. I felt very bad to see how my actions had put you under so much depression and sadness, and I couldn't dare to come and meet you any other normal day. I felt so much love when you used to E-mail me every day to tell how much you cared for me, and how much I meant to you. I'm sorry Arjun, I have been foolish since the last year. You always told me that you felt I was very near to you, and apart. Yes dear I was, I really way. You were right. There were days when I felt so loved that I couldn't resist myself, from giving you happiness, and that's why once late night I had kept a blue van model outside your home, yes it was me! I thought that would remind you of me, the way you had seen me for the first time in that bue van, but you were pretty depress to find solace in those materialistic things. I'm sorry for everything baby! I know you won't spare me, but trust me, I cried too, I cried everyday while I stayed apart from you. I was also in pain. I love you a lot still. I know, I have given everyone sorrow and pain. But please trynna forgive me, please? I promise I wont do this again. In fact, going apart for an year, I realized how much I loved you, and how I couldn't stay without you. Your emails made me feel wonderful, your love which you poured into your emails every night reached me, and I read, re-read and re-read the messages again and again. You don't know baby, how much have I missed you in the past year. You mean the world to me. Please come back t me. Lets resume our relationship.!"

"I don't want to be in a relationship with you anymore. "I replied

"I'm sorry Arjun!" she began crying.

I went down on my knee and proposed her, " My RAW agent, will you marry me? Lets go on adventures together!"

"What?!" She stopped mid-way her crying,and looked at me. I had a cake piece in my hand, just like I had a pizza slice 8 years ago.

"Yes, my smart engineer. This RAW agent is yours. I love you!"

Everything ended happily. We realized how much were we into each other, and how nothing in this world could take us apart. Neither the distance, nor the communication. If you love someone rightly, your love will withstand every hurricane it faces. We face a hurricane named, "DISTANCE", bu we didn't let it win over our love. Cause the power and energy of love was much more stronger then the negativity of separation. Life seemed perfect and complete now. At the end of all this, I rightly believed in a phrase- "Distance doesn't matter in love"

Anjali miss was always right, "EVERYTHING IS WRITTEN"

-Param Shendekar (3/5/17) 

Well, It was a wonderful journey to write this story over a long period of time. It made me realize of what and where do I lack, and where do I excel. Thanks to my readrs, and love to them. Keep Supoorting. Here I'm Param Shendekar, Signing Off From "Distance Determination and undwindling love"