Don't Hate Me but Please Love Me (ChanBaek)

Chapter 7- To Confess or Not?

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"So you are not yet married? why is that so? Sorry I ask that question." I said keeping that smile in my face.

"OH. Its okay. it is because...because of someone." he said in a low voice that I could barely hear him.

I lowered my head so he cannot see my eyes. I am honestly hurt and jealous. The man in front of me is still the man I grew to love. That feeling is well kept inside my heart. Hearing those words I cannot bring myself to tell him about Taehye. The words I've been practicing to spill at him evaporates and become pointless. Doubts and fear enveloped my senses. I am not prepared for this.

"So, Baek what is that important thing you want to tell me?" his soft, plump lips moves as he speaks. Focus Baek Hyun, snap it out.

"Ah oohmm Ani! I just want to catch up with you and the rest of the guys. It's been a-awhile since we last saw each, each other." I know I'm stuttering while speaking but I cannot control my tongue. 

"It's so nice to see you again. I am actually happy. It's like fate that we met." he blushed.

Moments passed we finished our food. He paid the bill and we headed to the door. The ultimate purpose of our meet up is a total failure. I just cannot confess right now. Probably we should just remain as good friends. I am lifting everything to the heaven if when and how I will be able to tell the truth. I am scared he will hate me and Taehye or he will not accept us. I cannot let anyone hurt my baby girl even if he is his father.

"Is it okay If I send you home?" he asked.

"No it's okay, I brought my own car and I still need to drop by at Dongdeamun market to buy some clothes and toys for Taehye." ooppss I blurted out without thinking. Damn!

The giant looked at me as if reading my facial expression confirming if he heard right. "Taehye?"

I felt my body went numb..think think think. 

"Who is Taehye, Baek?" he asked not losing our eye contact. I can see his expression became dark and sad. Oh how I want to blurt out and say, "She is our daughter" but I just cannot.

"Taehye- ahhmm she is my daughter." I said not looking directly at his eyes. My fingers are fidgeting and my knees start to wobble. Relax Baek not too obvious.

"Channie, I need to get going now," I find some excuse to escape.

"No wait! You're married?" gazing at my left finger to see if I wear a wedding bond. A sudden change of expression when he saw nothing. Was it relief?

"No I am not, I am a single father." I confirmed. Turning my back and unlocking the door of my car and hop in. Turning the ignition and wave goodbye to Chan Yeol. As I was backing I can still see him standing and not moving, staring at my car until  I can no longer see him.

Chan Yeol's POV

I still cannot believe that Baek Hyun is sitting right in front of me. It's been years and he looks more handsome than before, mature yet captivating. I am trying my best to keep cool. He asked if I am married and I said NO. How can I get married if after all those years I have not love or think of anyone but him. Yes, I am secretly and deeply in love with Baek Hyun. After that fateful night I have been thinking about Baekkie. I was so sad then when I heard he went back to his province. I devoted myself to my company making it the most in demand engineering firm. Projects are flooding and come from every corner both local and international that I barely have time to spare for myself. I have no regrets and complains because thru this I was able to forget Baek for sometime.

But after we bumped into each other, my heart kept on longing for him. I am already stable in everything I think it is time for me to focus and grant my heart's desire.

But after hearing from him that he has a daughter my plan shattered to pieces. He said he is a single father. I do not know what to think and say.I saw him rode his car and drove off. His words are registering on my mind and I am trying to digest everything.

I am sure I have no problem with that him having a daughter. He said he is a single father so the possibility of US is lingering in my mind. But a little doubt creeps on me and I can feel pain in my heart. I am hoping that Baekkie could be mine and mine alone. 

Double update for today. I am just in the mood to write. Please vote and comment. Thank you.. Neways, BTS is here now in the Philippines unfortunately we weren't able to buy the tickets for the concert.. :(