Don't Hate Me but Please Love Me (ChanBaek)

Chapter 6 -Truth & Consequence

Sorry it took me awhile to update this story..same  lame excuse, something came up but I am thankful to the first person who took notice of my story. Thank you 

@sorastarlight you just gave me that push I needed.

Weeks passed, Baek and Chan Yeol still see and talk to each other while in school. They were all busy in gathering all their school documents and necessary papers. They even hang out together in their usual place. They acted as if nothing happened. Even their closest friends did not suspect anything. Moreso, Baek felt something weird as his feelings for Chan Yeol grew strong. It was no longer infatuation but deeper that he cannot decipher. Chan Yeol too is holding that feeling he has for Baek as he fears rejection. What if Baek is homophobe?

Six weeks after

Baek woke up this morning feeling nauseous, his head felt dizzy and he only wanted to close his eyes and go back to sleep. He remember today he and Kyungsoo are going to finally start their business so he pulled himself up and shook his head to wake his senses. They are back to their own province and everything was already settled ready for their grand opening. He stood up and immediately run to his bathroom throwing up in the sink. He has not eaten anything last night as he was too busy preparing for their grand opening. Holding his stomach he looked at the mirror, his reflection tells that he looked pale with beads of sweat on his forehead. He still feel queasy.

Few more days passed and the same things happened to Baek. There were even a time he passed out. Worried about his condition he consulted a doctor. Series of tests and ultrasound were conducted to confirm his state. On that same day he knew he had this very rare condition. A condition where a male can conceive due to some physiological defect on his human anatomy. Internally he has a female reproductive organ and externally for that a male.. though his urinary system are all the same a twist on his reproductive system occur during his fetal growth. A very rare phenomenon.

"I'm pregnant???", shock was written on his face as his eyes became teary. 

"Yes, Mr. Byun and congratulations. I know this may sound shocking to you but I have already encountered the same situation while I was in Germany for my PhD. If you plan to keep this, rest assured I can take care of you and your baby. I know the pregnancy and birthing is not that easy but my staff and I will be here. AAhhhmm, does the father knows this too?" Dr. Wang asked as he looked over the pile of test results.

"No-No, but I am planning to keep my baby I cannot bear to have an abortion." I sternly answered.

"Okay well then, you will be experiencing the same symptoms as a pregnant woman, as your female hormones override your male hormones. Morning sickness, nausea, dizziness, cravings, body aches and soreness are all normal. I will be giving you lists of vitamins and supplements and schedule for your pre natal check up to ensure that the baby will be healthy. As we go along the pregnancy I will discuss to you everything so you will not be overwhelmed. Don't worry I will assist you in everything and you can call me anytime." he said as he handed me his calling card.

As I went out from the hospital my mind is floating. I hold my tummy still in the process of acceptance that a living soul is present within me. I cannot tell anyone about my situation, it is very hard to explain and I don't want other people to judge me or my child. I cannot even tell Chan Yeol about our baby. NO! I will definitely not involve him. I am afraid of his reaction and I cannot take it if he will reject my baby or do something to get rid of my baby.I am very much aware that he has a big dream, we should not hinder him or give him any disgrace.

Three months have passed

My baby bump was already visible. Though there were instances that my pregnancy symptoms attacked me in the office I always make up some excuses so Kyungsoo and my staff will not interrogate my condition. But this time atleast I have to tell my family they knew I was gay so that is a good start, I think. When I open up my situation to my parents they were shocked at first but then after some explaining and showing them the ultrasound I had they eventually understood my situation. I thanked the heavens that my parents were not hysterical and were very supportive. When they asked me if who the father was, I was very hesitant to tell them but they just shrugged their shoulders and thought that if I am ready I will tell them. I decided to tell my bestfriend as well since we were always together at work and sharing the same condominium unit. Kyungsoo was shocked at first but then he was very happy. He didn't bother to asked if who the father was. Knowing my BFF I knew he will wait for the time when I tell him everything. I felt relieved that my parents and my bestfriend were happy for me. A portion of burden was lifted from my heart. I always thought that my baby is my greatest blessing and I am very fortunate to have this rare condition when others were even having a hard time to conceive.

Months passed by quickly. My tummy becomes bigger and bigger noticeable to everyone even I am wearing a baggy sweatshirt and loose pants. Some have questioning eyes but I don't mind them at all. Others will approach me and touch my belly. So rude, right?

I have no news about Chan Yeol and it didn't even bother me. I know Kyungsoo and Kai still keep in touch but they never talked about me or Chan Yeol. Kyungsoo is also protecting me and my baby. I was thinking that if we have no communication he will not know about my condition, I can protect my baby until she is born. From then only time and fate will decide on what will happen.

I gave birth to a beautiful baby girl. I named her Taehye, Byun Taehye. As I laid my eyes on her I saw the most beautiful baby, she is like an angel. I noticed her resemblance to Chan Yeol, she has the elf like ears but makes her cuter. I knew Kyungsoo noticed it as well but he said nothing. Just eyeing me waiting for my confession but no words came out from my mouth.

Wheeew I finished this chapter again.. Hope I can update again soon. Please if you have time please read and vote. Thank you. Any comments are welcome too please no bash and hurtful words.