Whose girl am I anyway?

Chapter 4

A/N: sorry I haven't updated in so long. Hope you liked the previous chapters. There's more to come, keep reading

I've been standing in the shower for about 15 minutes thinking about where my situation is going. So if Karen really knows and considering how big of a hoe she is, why isn't she doing anything? And wow what about Tanya? She acts like she already knows everything. Maybe no one give a shit. And why would they? If only Spencer would be here, finally seeing me accepting myself and my feelings.

Then there're my parents. There's no way I'll ever come out to them. I'll probably wait till I move out or something. It can't be that bad. Hell, at least I can't get pregnant. Shouldn't that make a parent happy? Wait, not if they're Catholic!

I figure that just me pondering about the situation won't help. I need to get out there and make myself clear to everyone. Wait, why is it even necessary for everyone to know? Quit over thinking, Sasha!!

I board the school bus. I'm among the first ones to be there since my pick up comes before other people. I pop ear plugs into my ears and try to clear my thoughts. But putting music on shuffle usually doesn't let you do that. The bus stops to pick someone. Theo. This guy I've known for a long time. He's really handsome. Out of all the seats, he picks the one next to mine. I'm confused, what? I quit over thinking again and go back to listening to music.

I look at the next seat from my peripheral vision and notice Theo staring at me. Or my iPod. So I take one of my ear plugs out and offer it to him. He smiles and accepts.

"So what we go here?" he says. "Pop? Didn't think you'd be so mainstream"
What am I supposed to say to that? Can I be offended?
"Uh.. I actually enjoy diversity. I listen to a lot of genres like indie grunge, pop punk and trap"
"Can I see? " He scrools through my playlist and I think he whispers 'boring' every now and then. Okay, What the fuck?
"you seem to have a very monotonous taste. I might lend some help, but not for free".
"You mean a booty call?" shut up!!
"You wish"
"I sure do", I say sarcastically. Did he even note my sarcasm.
"Well, baby girl, got to go!",I raise my eyebrow at the little pet name that I don't like. I look out of the window and notice we've reached school. He gets up immediately, winks at me and gets off the bus. Does he even know I'm not into guys?  The joke's on him if he's got any such intentions.

"...the only countries that remained neutral were Spain, Switzerland, Turkey and Portugal. Germany conquered Norway and Denmark by April of 1940...". In history, Theo was sitting right beside me. I didn't even know he had history with me. At this point, I don't even know what to think. What is going on in his beautiful head? What the fuck did I just think? But seriously though, he was a treat to the eyes. Not to my eyes. I'm totally not lying to myself. He has such pretty honey coloured hair, a smile that most girls would die for. Well, most straight girls. Without even realizing, I've been staring at him from the corner of my eye. I carefully turn my head toward him.  Fuxk. He's smirking at me. Well, he really doesn't know, does he? It's so funny that I want to go home and laugh so hard that I end up crying.