Emotional

Chapter 9

Jay slowly woke the next morning looking around confused at first. He slowly realized he was at Will's, and yesterday came flooding back to him. He could hear Will and Owen so he knew it must be morning. He jumped up and grabbed his phone; it was nine thirty.

"Will!" he called.

"Say good morning Uncle Jay," Will said wiping Owen's face of his breakfast.

Owen cooed and babbled at them as Jay ran a hand through his hair. "You gave me something didn't you," Jay accused.

Will shrugged. "You needed the sleep."

Jay sighed. "I gotta get back."

"She's fine. Eat some breakfast and we'll go."

"I'm good. I'm leaving."

"Jay! Stop. Natalie is still there and she's fine. Eat some breakfast and we'll go."

Jay glared at him, but since Owen was there he held in the fight he was dying to have with his brother for making decisions for him. He sat down and Will passed him Owen. Jay took the happy boy while Will made breakfast.

They ate listening to Owen babble to them. Jay was dying to get back. Will finally grabbed Owen's bag and they headed out. Once they pulled up at the hospital, Jay jumped out leaving him to get Owen. He ran up to her room just needing to make sure she was still there.

He slowed down before he bust through her door. She and Nat were sitting there talking. "Hey Er," he smiled.

"Hey babe. Did you get some sleep?"

Jay nodded. Erin figured Will must have given him something because she'd honestly thought he'd been back already.

"Ma!" they heard Owen squeal making them laugh.

Natalie took Owen and they went out to the hall to give them a minute. Jay sat down on the side of the bed and rubbed her cheek. "You ok Er?"

Erin nodded. "I'm ok babe; I promise."

"Er…"

"No. No apologies. I'm fine Jay. Everything is going to be ok. Hopefully your brother is gonna send me home today," she said with a smile rubbing his cheek.

"Yea…. I dunno if Voight is gonna give me time off or not."

"I'll be fine Jay. Really."

Before they could continue anymore there was a knock at the door and Hank walked in. Jay kept quiet. He still wasn't ready for the conversation he knew was coming.

Hank checked on Erin and they carried on conversation while Jay just watched her breathing. "I'll be right back," he said feeling the walls closing in as Hank watched him. He hated how it felt to have him just staring knowing he was going to have to face him sooner or later. Erin gave his hand a squeeze as he went out. She was worried about him; she was afraid this was going to be a setback from how far they'd come in the last four months and she just wanted him ok.

Jay went out in the hall and took a deep breath. He knew he had to face the music from Hank before too long, and he was most definitely not looking forward to it. He sat down in the floor outside her room and thought about all the things he should've done differently yesterday. He knew he never should've let her go off on her own, but this was Erin and he knew she could take care of herself.

As he sat there and thought, he heard the door to her room open. He held in his groan when he looked up and saw Hank. He jumped up and Hank nodded for him to follow him. Jay nodded and followed Hank to the roof. Jay kept his hands lanced behind his back, intermittently squeezing his nails into his hand to try and relieve some stress.