Read - Lashton

Goodbye dear friend.

My brother is dead. He's really gone. I feel completely lost all over again.. Just when I just started to feel better. My life fell apart in that one news flash. I felt broken, alone, sad.. but I also felt like I had no one else left. My brother was my best friend, he was like a dad to me. He was my inspiration when I was a kid. I wanted to be just like him. But now.. I just feel.. nothing but darkness inside of me.

Ashton hasn't left my side ever since he heard the news. Which has been 6 days ago now. And today is his funeral.. I'm sure Ashton won't even let me go to the bathroom by myself. I took care of everything. I payed everything.. It's heartbreaking to burry your own brother. 

Around 12pm, some friends and a few family members arrived at the church.. Sky always loved the church and he ones said he wanted to have his funeral in the church so..   All of them came up to me to give me a hug and to say how amazing Sky was, but in reality, they were never there for him.. Not when he needed them the most. 

The funeral started. I sat in front, with Ashton. Dad was nowhere to be seen. Mom hasn't been home all week, since she heard what happened to Sky, she left town, scared that my dad will go after me, or her. I haven't heard from her either. Oh well.. at least Ashton is with me. 

Some music was played, some pictures where shown and some people spoke about their times with Sky. And now, it was my turn to speak up about my brother. Ashton gave me a kiss on the cheek as a good luck charm and I took a deep breath in, and out, before walking on the small stage.

As I stood there, all eyes were focussed on me. 

''Sky, was a lovely brother.. He was like a father to me. He learned me how to walk, how to talk, how to behave. He was there for me when no one else was. He has been through rough times, allot of them. Most of them, ended in him being mentally of physically hurt. Some ended with a broken heart, and others would end with an broken arm.'' I smiled softly at a memorie of him, breaking his arm while climbing a tree. He was 7, i was about 4, maybe 5.

''Sky was a person with a big heart, a big mind and no limits. He wanted to do everything in life, but unfortunately, this is a dream that won't come true. One of his other dreams was..'' a tear slipped down my cheek, thinking about one of his dreams. '' 'I want to see the world with you. I want to go to places we can't even afford to go to. I wanna run away with you, brother and brother. Side by side. Forever. Only good times will be ahead of us.' '' I couldn't stop the tears from rolling down by now and suddenly I felt Ashton grab my hand and gently caress it. Saying I could finish this. For Sky. 

''We almost made it Sky.. Almost. But I promise you, I will make your dream come true.'' I said, laying one hand on his coffin. 

''We're gonna miss you Sky.. I'm gonna miss you... big brother.'' 

I couldn't stop the tears from streaming down and Ashton helped me back to our seats, and never letted me go. 

Goodbye dear friend. We will never forget you.