everybody dies in their nightmares // xxxtentacion x ski mask the slump god

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     *Ski's POV*

    I had a dream i was with him in a room.

     It was all white, and infront of me was Jahseh. He looked at me and i saw love in his eyes. I hate what i saw but i felt nothing but love back at him. When i woke up, he was the first thing i saw.

   Ive known i was bisexual for years now, never really dating a guy but always knowing i would be with a guy if i met the right one.

     The silence between us was terrible, it was all my fault too. I don't know how to come out to him. I've been trying to stay away from him lately too, staying back from parties or going out with him just because i can't look at him without wanting to kiss him. 

   Me: come back bro
 
    X: 1 sec
 
     Me: i need to tell u something
  
     X: okay

    No going back now i guess. This is the only way i will be able to feel better about this situation.

   He finally walks back into the room and sat on the couch. "What do you need to tell me?" X asks finally. I clear my throat and prepare for a harsh reaction, maybe even losing my best friend.

    "Um, ive been having a difficult time lately talking to you because i am bisexual, and i have started to get feelings for you, i don't want you to think that i'm trying to hook up or be anything with you. i don't want none of that shit. " i say, getting straight to the point to avoid confusion between the two of us. "My sexuality doesn't change anything about me. And i hope you still accept me despite this." I ash my blunt and hit it again, waiting for him to respond. 

The look on his face is disgusted. He looks like he's about to kill me.

    "Bro you're really telling me this after all this fucking time? After years of us being friends and sharing everything?" he says.

"Was i supposed to run up to you with a rainbow shirt and tell you, Oh Jahseh guess what! i like dick too?" i laughed. I don't understand why it's such a huge deal to him. 

He shakes his head. "I really can't deal with this kinda shit right now ski. i'm gonna go ask one of the guys to switch rooms with me." he grabs his suit case and leaves the motel room again, and i don't see him for the rest of the night.

*X's pov again*

I don't know how i'm supposed to feel about my best friend having feelings for me. I'm fine if he's not straight, it's just the fact that he likes me. I'm angry he kept this from me for so long and made it so awkward lately, i felt like something was wrong with me the whole time. But at the same time, i feel some sort of relief that he did tell me. 

For the night i switched rooms and it was fine. In the morning we packed up and drove to the venue we were performing at later that night. I didn't talk to Ski in the car or for most of the day. 

I was standing outside with a group of guys talking and laughing and Ski walked up. He taps my arm, motioning for me to come with him. I follow him and we walk down the street from the club. This area is really rundown, the roads and sidewalks are bumpy and the buildings look dreary. 

Ski starts to talk as were walking, "I'm sorry if what i told you freaked you out." He says. 

"It didn't freak me out. Thanks for letting me know though." i tell him, genuinely meaning it now. I wasn't freaked out. I just wasn't prepared.

"Are we cool?"

"yeah were cool man."

I give him a hug and we turn around to walk back towards the club, but something still just does not feel right in me. i feel like im about to throw up.

maybe its just nerves cause im performing soon.

maybe its just nerves. 

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