everybody dies in their nightmares // xxxtentacion x ski mask the slump god

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By the time we get back to the club, im clenching my stomach from the pain. What is happening to me?

I can see a line already forming at the door, but i put my hood up and my head down and walk around to the back of the building. My manager is standing by the door, phone to his ear and he looks irritated as hell.

When he sees me he clicks his phone off, "Where the fuck have you been? Where is ski mask?" he says, looking behind me.

I shrug and walk through the door, and holy shit. This tiny backstage area was packed full of people. The show was set to start in 10 minutes, the first person up to perform was wifisfuneral and i could hear people cheering outside already. My stomach pain was slightly gone now.

I had decided for this show i would have a different set list, i want to show the audience my roots and perform some of my older songs.

40 minutes into the show, it's time for me to go out. Adrenaline runs through my veins and i can feel the energy from my fans out there. I love this feeling. It's better than any drug i've done.

Lets Pretend We're Numb comes on and i can tell some people are confused. The lights go out and there's a single light on me. "As a fair warning to everyone listening to me out there, i advise you to not hide your feelings. Do not pretend to be okay when you are not okay." A girl in front of the stage holds her hand out to me and i take it, looking at her. "Do not pretend to be happy when you are sad. It will only lead to your misery." The crowd screams and i let go of the girls hand, smiling at her and i jump up.

"Don't you fucking hate it when you hear my name?

I feel the same and when you hear this you gon' feel the pain

And all these niggas that you fuckin with to get away

But girl i know you think about it almost every day

And i'll be honest i be jealous of these niggas, true

How you feeling with these niggas that you talk to?

Captivated by your mind and your walk too, cant replace you with these bitches that i talk to.

This aint lust, its love.

We had trust, whats good?

I shoudlve held you close

shouldve kept you warm

and when the rain is fallin, wonder who you call

Dont pray to god you rather cry than call

dont jump

pretend it dont hurt

repent, i wont stop, my feet in a rage

my nigga im no chump

need you, when i crave you, hate you

think i ripped the wings off my fuckin angel

it dont hurt me, damn."

I'm back to the spot i started in and i see the girl from before. I look her in the eyes, "Itll be alright soon, ill forever be the elephant in the room."

The crowd screams and the next song is Riot. I go on to play Look At Me, YuNg BrAtZ, revenge, i spoke to the devil in miami, and looking for a star.

After i finished looking for a star, i walked back behind the stage and grabbed a stool. I pull it on stage with me and sit down. "Hey guys, quiet quiet i wanna talk to all you guys." The crowd gets quiet and i can tell theyre all very confused.

"I am the kind of person who gets caught up in the life i live. I forget to be grateful, but words cannot describe how much i love all of you. I would not be where i am without all of you, you all are my biggest accomplishment. I struggle with depression, you can hear it in my lyrics. You all save me when im down, you give my life purpose. I will be eternally grateful for that, and i wanted to take a couple minutes out of the show to get to know you all and to have a little kickback with you guys. So imma treat yall like were in school, raise your hand if you wanna talk and dont interupt anyone." I wipe a tear off of my cheek and hands go shooting up in the air.

I point to a tall white guy with blonde hair standing in the middle. I motion for him to come up closer and i bend down at the edge of the stage so i can hear him better.

He smiles at me and gives me a hug, "I'm Jake, i love your music man." I hug him back and smile.

"Okay everyone, this is Jake!" the crowd responds with a welcoming, "Hi Jake!"

"So i wanted to ask you, who did you first start making music with?" He asks.

I had to think for a second. Then it popped into my head. Ski.

"When i was younger, i was in and out of juvie a lot. I ended up meeting Ski mask in there, and thats how we became friends. We would record songs in his closet and we would edit the songs on shitty programs and distort them hella." i laugh at the memory.

"Um, actually, my songs were the shit. Yours sir, were trash." Skis voice comes over another mic. I start to laugh, and he comes out on the other side of the stage. The crowd cheers and laughs and i smile at ski.

"True, yours werent that bad." i shrug.

Ski joins me to answer a couple more fan questions and we finish the show off with I dont wanna do this anymore and rip roach.

I say goodbye to the crowd, call all the artists out on stage and we all say our goodbyes and thank yous, and we all head back behind the stage.

Now its time to party.