Across The Border

Leaving Home

"Please don''t go," He begged. His eyes bored into mine as I saw a tear glisten in the corner of his eye, it was the first time I had ever seen him cry.

We were in the airport, untouched by the light tears of the sky. The sky I would be flying across in a few minutes. My breath caught in my throat and my eyes grew hazy, holding back tears.

""It's not that far..."I began,  growing distant thinking. He stepped closer to me and took me in his warm arms, an embrace I wouldn't feel for a while, maybe forever.

A tear leaked out of my eye, followed by many more, I was sobbing now, leaving dark marks on his shirt.

"What am I going to do without you." He whispered into my hair. I hugged him closer, surprising him, I hugged him with passion, letting all my emoting fall into that hug, Dustin picked into my mood and slowly moved his lips to mine.

The kiss was full of a slow burning passion that I knew no one else could measure up to, no one else could make me feel this way. The kiss was salty from my tears, it was sloppy and desperate but neither of us cared.

When we finally pulled apart I stared into deep blue pools, trying to tell him what words couldn't say. Brushing the blond lock of hair that always fell in his eyes away for perhaps the last time I pulled away.

I felt a part of me drifting away, like the plane I was about to board, a great sense loss overwhelmed me, bringing new tears. They rushed out of my eyes gushing like a waterfall.

"I miss you already." I whispered turning around and leaning my head against his chest.

I heard a quiet sob, his body shook slightly, before many more were heard.

The sound broke my heart.

"Is that it then.. This pain is what we have come down to?" I said bitterly still looking away from him.

He held my chin in his thumb and fore finger turning my head to face him, his finger brushing my lip. "Amber... Don't say that, we will stay together, no matter what. Promise me that, promise me that you won't run off with some Californian surfer." He said with slight humour although I could her the serious under-tone of his voice, it was the same seriousness he used when he talked about his abusive father, or his younger sister, protective even.

At that moment I thought nothing could be better than pledging myself to him, I was fifteen. I loved him, and I was being foolish. But I didn't care.

" I promise."

We both knew that this was the end of our goodbye. We both wanted it to last forever, so even if forever was filled with tears and heartbreak and loss at least we would still be together.

Savouring him once more I ran.

I ran through the terminal and onto the plane sitting in a seat I knew wasn't mine, but no-one would dare ask me to move, my breathing came in quick short gasps, as if he was my oxygen supply and without him I couldn't survive.

Panting now I tried to hold onto those last moments, but they were slipping through my fingers like sand.

I didn't know how long  it took to get to America but every hour that passed was an hour further from Dustin. I knew that much.