Sometimes I just want to cry myself to sleep knowing that I cant because they're screaming at me
"Just give up!"
"You'll never be happy!"
Those same words make me feel numb and I lose all of my sanity that I barely manage to hold onto.
Did I really screw up that bad?
Was I just a mistake waiting to be called on by the dark sides of ourselves that we know we cant fight off!?
Well is it just some sick game they told kids to play?
Like pin the tail on the donkey? Or perhaps hide and seek?
They tought us to mock those unable to fend for themselves...
The only way to win is to aim for a target that you cant see...
Like life trying to aim for a light completely consumed in darkness
But then we run and hide hoping that thirty seconds was enough time to find and hiding spot where you know you'll be found...
We each find someway to manage to escape... But then after a certain amout of times...they evolve and learn every one of your places to hide...
Then you find yourself running away from yourself because you never realized that you were always playing by yourself....
The stars crumble and along with it the sky falls. Crushing you with a weight so great that you cant breathe
You cant struggle or sleep your way out of death becase soon enough you'll realize that you were asleep the entire time just not realizing that you were the one wishing for death.
