I didn't want to be this person. I have watched myself turn into this person for a long time and didn't have enough power to stop it or pull myself together. Maybe I don't even want to? I don't even know who I am anymore, I do things that I wouldn't do before, it is as if I am unconscious when I am around HIM, like my body parts change jobs, my heart acts as my brain and my brain as an appendix - useless. I do and say stuff i don't mean or plan to do. He changes me. And the worst part is that I let him.
