I bought a CD of all your favorite songs in hopes that it would bring me back to the times we stayed up until 3 in the morning, singing along with all the words I did not know. You act as if nothing has changing. Darling, don't you see? We are not longer in synch. We are humming the tunes of two different melodies. We've built a wall between us, using materials that we refuse to accept exist.
We like to play pretend when it comes to discussing or even giving a fraction of a second to thinking about us. Love, our relationship is not a playground and my feelings are not your toys to amuse yourself with. You and I, we're like the first drops of rain before a huge storm. Everything seems okay at first, but then everything will evidently go wrong with the blink of an eye.
Things are changing, minds are growing old. We are no longer the same two people who thought they fell in love. I am drowning, and you are the one holding me in the water and asking me why I can't breath. I believe in the power of hope. I believe in the power of unity. I know it's hard to admit, but I no longer believe in the power of us.
When I look at you it's like trying to look through a fogged window. I don't see you anymore. I know, you don't see me either. We have become irrelevant strangers to one another. We've made a fool out of love. We have become the lovesick fools, that we used to laugh at in movies.
I used to try and imagine our future together. I never saw anything, but I thought that's how it was supposed to be. You made me feel alive, and reckless. You made me hope for a better tomorrow. You made me believe in us. Then, you stopped. You stopped caring, you stopped trying. I know, I am part to blame. There is never an innocent player in the game of love.
I hope you understand this. I hope you understand all of this. I am watching you right now, as you sleep. I am speaking these words in hopes, somewhere in your unconsciousness, you are listening. I wish we would stop the madness, and lies, and deceit. I want you to hear me. I want to be able to say goodbye without guilt feeding on my heart. I want to be able to look at you and know what we're doing is for the best. Darling, don't you see? Love has played us, yet again.
