Chantal's life till 2K17

Fourth grade

I never want this year back.at least I think. It was hard asf for me. I will never get back what I loved and needed also cared about. But my dad had still been touching me. It was a terrible year. Just so terrible. First my uncle died. I know there all reading this and that's what I believe. So I want to give them a note of y'all don't mind.
😇Uncle~Scott😇
R.W.G-to you.
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Dear:uncle
  I love and miss you and I know your reading all of this. I just wanted you to know that it's all true of what my dad did. I care about you and I wish that you didn't have to go.
R.W.g
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I really do wish that he was still hear.I really truly do miss him. He was the one that I could go and talk to. But at this time I didn't know what to do,my brother died and my dad was still sexually abusing me. I wish that I could really talk to him till this day.
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My pap had also died this year. I'm going out of order but I'll do it however I guess.
  Dear:pap
Pap,I really miss you and love you. I know that you love me to. I would never lie to you about what my dad did. It's all the truth. My dad witch is your son was a great dad until that happened tbh. I really wish you were here to tell him what wrong he had done. That would be the best for me right now.
ILY
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Sometimes I really do wis that he was here because he could really help me. He could really talk to me. He was the one that you could go to and talk and eat with. I remember when we went to eat at his house with him. It was so fun. We had pizza.
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Dear:Grandma
You probably already know what your son did to me. You prob also already knew that it was going to happen. I just wish that somebody could have warned me you know. None of this would have happened if I was warned. I wouldn't be in new York. My mom would have not met that dick that she was with you know. I just wish that you was still here to talk to me. I really love and miss you.
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Dear:Brother
I really miss you. Your the best. You are the one that I love. The one that I care about. You died when I was in the fourth grade. You wanted me and Abigail to come home and then I saw you die right upfront of me. I really didn't want that day to be true. Everybody was crying and I didn't like that I was young. I know we fought all the time but your still my favorite. I love and miss you I will come see you when I'm 18 and come back down to PA okay. I really love and care about you. Stay safe and don't stress stay calm.
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Dear:1at friend
I really can't believe that it was you. That day that I found out it was you I balled until I fell asleep. I came to your funeral I truly cried that day to. I could never think it was you. But it was. Sometimes I guess I just can't get over the fact that your gone. I really miss you and love you. Your the best that I could have as a friend. Thank you for being there to.

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Dear 2 and 3rd friend
I really miss y'all I can't believe that y'all passed away from heroin. It's crazy out in this world I just wish that I was able to get you out of it and keep you here. Y'all both were the nicest. One was like my brother and the other was like my other dad I was happy when my mom met you both. I felt like we all could happy but then tiny passed and I cried.
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Sometimes people don't understand the things that happen to me and I wish they did because it will never be the same for me. I want to help people out with these kinds of things. Like tell them that it's going to be okay. But people don't listen either so it's prob not worth it you know. I don't want to waste my words. That's why I don't tell anybody anything or barley talk anymore.
I have ideas to make it work though I really do. I hope that it can work. In the fourth grade I was bullied. There was a girl that could not make up her mind if she was friends with me or not. But my friend angel had came back and I was happy. But then it turned out that we didn't talk as much. It was okay for me.I think that her brother started to like me a little. I liked him when I was in the third grade but not fourth. I haven't seen them since the fourth grade. I guess that I was so sad knowing that you know.
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So I'm going to end this chapter and go on with more chapters only because I think that there's enough of the fourth grade and I think that y'all know alot now. Anyway I really want more chapters and want to move on lol. Thank you for reading this though. Alot more will be longer.
There was alot of words BTW and that would be 1086.