Short Stories

5.Girl I Was

Prompt 431:"This is the story of the girl I was. This is how I killed her."

  This is the story of the girl I was. This is how I killed her.

    I've always had four friends. They weren't the nicest but they were all I had.  We use to stay up long nights together, discussing the hardships of being bestfriends. Sometimes I wish they would've understand how much influence they had on me, or how tired I was of everything.

    Mia and Ana were always the confusing ones. They argued over me all the time. Mia wanted to make sure I ate good, and Ana would always scold her.

     Ana didn't like when I gained weight, and she always got upset when Mia would make me and then tell me how fat I was. It was hard to make one happy without making the other mad so the three of us had a rocky relationship.

     Then there was Suzzy. Suzzy swore she loved me the most. But she was just jealous that was her problem. She never wanted me to go outside or to talk to anyone else.

     I remember distinctly how she and I would lock ourselves in my room. She had this weird obsession with death. She use to persuade me to cut myself every now and then and I did just for her satisfaction.

       I wasn't to fond on her eager obsession for my death but over the years we coped with one another. I liked to believe that Suzzy just loved me to much. And in some sick way I honestly loved Suzy too.

     Suzzy and Izzy were best of friends. They honestly swore to be there for me no matter what. I think that they tolerated another because in some ways they were just like another. Izzy loved to isolate me too although she didn't believe in knives and blood.

    Izzy made me feel alone. I know sometimes she didn't mean to do it but she did. Her and Suzzy would take turns watching over me when I decided to stay in my room because Ana and Mia would persuade me to stay. Ana would tell me how skinny and worthless I was and Mia would scold me on how I was gaining weight.

    Either way they all got what they wanted when I decided to miss school another day then needed.

     For some reason I thought that Lea was the only sane one. But looking back I realize that she's just as bitter as they were.  She use to sneak in every night and tell me it would be okay and everything would get better but then she'd be the same one encouraging Ana, Mia, and Suzzy to treat me the way that they did.

     She could never make up her mind but I will say she made the rules. When I told the girls I didn't wanna be friends anymore they were all mad at me. Except Suzzy.

    Suzzy loved the thought of me leaving for good. In fact she couldn't wait, she wanted to help me leave. But, I payed no mind because in the end I always knew someone would win if not all them.

      As crazy as it sounds I miss them. After all I had no one but them. They were evil and they fed on my pain but they were the closest friends I ever had. Sure, they had weird ways of doing things but they all meant something to me. They were all special in a way.

    Now they've found a different girl to deprive. I can tell now it'll be awhile until she's here with me. I've meet a few friends here. They've all had Ana, Mia, Suzzy, Izzy, and Lea as friends before and they've all left them as I did.

     See, the truth is. Ana, Mia, Suzzy, Izzy, and Lea weren't people. They were built up demons that lived inside me and the day I decided to destroy them was the same day I decided to die because none of them wouldn't have it any other way.

     If you ever see them. Tell them how much I miss them. Tell them that it was never me but it was them. I had to rid them, because it was the only way I could be free.

      In case you don't understand

  Ana= Annorexia

   Mia = Bulimia

  Izzy= Depression/Isolation

   Suzzy =Suicidal

  Lea=Self harm/mixture of all four