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im sorry

Im so sorry i dont think--no! I know you dont think i am and i know you dont think i care or tat anybody does but i do and i am truly sorry its just things have been bad for me lately and its been hard to keep up with everything im fallimg apart theres so many bad things going on and school oh god school has been crazy my grades are slipping i cant focus my depression is worsening im so so so sorry that i haven't been texting you its all my fault and i know how it makes you feel when i dont text you and i never end up doing it because im stupid im so fucking stupid im always running around doing other peoples home work getting beat up in the bathroom cramming for test struggling to finish assignments thats why i havent updated my story in a while i feel like im dying i kinda just want to die but we made a promise that neither of us could leave eachother and if you left i'd follow you because ill follow you to the end if the earth im sorry im such a horrible person and im sorry i cant make you happy im sorry those things happen i wish i could fix them but like you said im worthless and im no good and im never useful and i havnt been useful and i know you said it wasnt yiu but i mean those thoughts came from somewhere there is a little bit of truth in every just kidding maybe even a lot and in your case its all true im all those things you said i know i am everybody says it not just you and its ok. I know people go behind my back and talk shit i know people hate me i know i want to die or just give up something like that but its ok im use to it i know that sounds sad and pathetic but its true im like numb now i havent felt happiness in a while and i miss it but its so far and i cant reach it im struggling to grasp a hold of it and every now an then my finger tips will brush against it but i never have gotten a tight graspe onto it and i dont think i ever will but its ok schools almost over im graduating guys its so crazy im going to high school noe and i kniw its gonna be 10xs worse but i just need a change i just want to be some where, where i might have a chance of finally the so called happiness but untill then im trying ok im trying so hard but tori im sorry i dont exspect you to forgive me but please know that i care and im sorry