Last First Date.

Last Card Game

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You and I,
We both know,
A times coming,
When the leaves fall,
And the wind blows,
And pretty flowers go,
And new ones come in.
It can be sad,
When your happiness leaves,
But you'll find it again in new summer leaves.
~NGBoyd
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Getting home from the
mall I put my stuff in my room and go the the family room. This will be our first family game night sense my incident back home, in Kansas.

When I get to the family room, were everyone was to meet up, I see multiple board games, card games and more, instead of the usual athletic sports games like football, soccer, kickball or baseball. I had nothing against this, only that the only reason we weren't having a normal game night was because of me.

Darcy pulled me over to the coffee table, and we started with the card games. She looked as though she was in thought but being the kind of person she is she let it go and started talking about random, unimportant things.

"Jay? Are you even listening to me!"

"Not really, no." I say. I was in my own world thinking about the situation that I landed myself in.

"Hey, what's up? What's on your mind?" She said

"What to you think about this?" I gestured to me, than everywhere else.

"Well I don't know about you, but I love that your here." I could see the tension in her body, but she had a smile on her face. I stayed silent, not commenting, she new what I meant.

Sighing she answered, "I think you should have got treatment, maybe if you had than you wouldn't be so sick right now." Darcy was fighting tears, and in the end she lost that battle, she hurriedly got up and left the room. I felt bad after that, I should have gotten treatment, that was a given, but it was too late now.

I got up and left the room, going back to my room I sat on my bed. And for the first time in a long time, I cried, I cried so hard I choked a few times. It was nasty, the whole snot and spit ordeal.

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Later that night, my brother Samuel came in, sitting beside me he looked at his hands.

"You know, it may not seem like it, but the way Darcy feels is the way a lot of us feel. We don't voice it because you wanted to 'let it take its course' but the fact is,things like this don't just go away. They stay with you until you force it to leave, or pray to the good lord that he can take it away. Jay, we all new as soon as you made your choice that there was a possibility of you not making it. Even Darcy, just because she voiced it doesn't change anything, you herd the doctor, its to late now..."
we both sat in silence for a while, Samuel and I don't talk much, but when we do it's always important.

"The reason we came here is because we know your happy here, you and I both know that that time is close, we wanted you the happiest you could be. So, no matter what any of us say, do what makes you happy. Even if we don't agree with it." With that said, he left then room, not looking back.

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Hey guys!

Tell me what you think, criticism is welcome because I'm not feeling like shit lol.

Has anyone else here listened to dead man walking by nomy? Its lagit my favorite song rn, anyway gtg tell me what you think 😁