amusement park ♡ soonchan

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"Jeonghan is different. He's different than any other person I've ever liked. There's something about him that completely throws my game off, something that brings out a part of me that I didn't even know existed. When I first met him, I treated him like I treated anyone else that I would come on to, but after I actually got to know him, I realized that my way of doing things wasn't getting to him. I asked myself 'Is it worth it? To completely change the way I treat him so that he likes me?' Of course the answer was yes. Now instead of everyone desperately chasing after me, it's me chasing after someone. He loves it.

He makes me feel like I'm walking on air. From the moment I wake, he's all I think about. I think of his hair and his voice and that smile and I could daydream all day about every reason that he's too good for me. And he tells me to stop putting him on this pedestal because I'm just as extraordinary but I know that it just can't be true. No one is as magnificent as Jeonghan."

"That was disgusting," stated Mingyu, flicking sand at Seungcheol.

Seungkwan wiped fake tears from his cheeks, sniffled, and said, "Seungcheol...that was...beautiful!"

"Yeah, whatever. That's the most emotion you'll get from me for a couple months. I'm gonna' go piss," Seungcheol scoffed, standing up and shuffling towards the water.

We'd been sitting on the beach for the majority of the day. I can't recall the last time I've been surrounded by shirtless dudes and not found it odd. The only odd thing here was how pale Wonwoo was. We all assumed he was pale because he never got out but he was so white that the sun was making his skin glow so much that it blinded us.

For most of today, Seungcheol was telling us the highlights of his time with Jeonghan. I'd been doing my best to not mention Chan, but it's just so hard! But this wasn't about me...

"Seungkwan," Mingyu began, "Has anyone ever told you that your cheeks look so squishy? Like I just want to reach out and squish your cheeks!"

I was offended. I'm sure my cheeks are just as squishable as Seungkwan's, and no one had ever said anything like that to me.

Seungcheol came strolling back towards us and we strained to look at him because the sun right behind him was blinding.

"Let's play volleyball," he suggested. We all stood up and joined a group of girls that was already playing. Mingyu put on his seductive side.

"Hey ladies, why don't you let us join you?" Mingyu smiled his canine smile and yet the girls weren't impressed.

He turned around to Wonwoo and pouted, "Have I lost my luster?"

"No, dear," Wonwoo replied, patting his man on the back.

It was Seungcheol's turn, "Come on, ladies, you want to say no to this?" He was pointing to the place where his abs would be if he had any.

The girls giggled.

"No thank you," stated one of the girls, "But you know what? We'll let the hottest one of you play with us."

Mingyu and Seungcheol fought to pose in front of the ladies. Wonwoo and I silently stood behind them.

"Hmmmmm. Okay. You," the girl pointed towards Mingyu.

The said boy raised his arms up and kissed his muscles.

"No, not you, loser. The guy behind you," the girl corrected.

Suddenly everyone was staring at me and I felt my face flush. It felt like the entire beach had just miraculously gotten ten degrees hotter.

"M-me?" I asked. There was just no way they thought I was the hottest. Hottest temperature wise, that's for sure.

"Yeah, dummy. Come on, let's play," the girl shouted, getting in position.

It felt like my legs were being swallowed by the ground but Mingyu gave me a brotherly pat on the back, telling me to "go out there and get them".

Now, my volleyball skills were mediocre at best. There was no way I was going to impress anyone. Nevertheless, I got to my position, glancing at the other three girls that were on my team. The boys sat down on the sides and cheered my name like idiots.

Before the game started we all introduced ourselves. The other team was serving first. The ball bounced around the other girls for a few moments until one of them passed it to me and I completely missed and it hit the sand at my feet. I made up some terrible excuse for why I missed and passed the ball back to the other side. Once again once it was passed to me I completely failed to bring us any points. The boys clamored as if every time I missed, I was winning the world series. I gave them the finger.

It was my turn to serve. It was my time to shine, and show them that I'm not an utter failure! I threw up the ball and hit it with all of my might, and it actually went over the net. It made its way back over to our side and I built up the courage to try to spike it. Much to everyone's awe, I finally scored a point!

The game went on for a while, with me trying my absolute best to not look like a fool. Afterwards, I think I'd really made a hit with the girls. They even invited me back to their hotel room. I went back to tell the boys, who were splashing around in the waves and they all gave me high fives and told me to go for it but I think at least Seungkwan knew that my heart wasn't there. There was a large part of me that wanted to go back to their room, but I knew that there was nothing there for me. There's no heart there for them to have. Because it was stolen by a certain someone that I've made obvious already. I declined their offer and jumped in the waves with Seungcheol.

Later, once the sun was starting to go down, we went back to the house and turned on some movies and cooked dinner. Some of us sat on the balcony and watched the sunset and all of the colors in the clear sky slowly sink down to the horizon and turn to black. After things started to cool off, we jumped in the jacuzzi and gossiped about mutual friends and enemies and soaked in the view of the blanket of stars hanging above us. We completely procrastinated with packing our things, which ended up being a stressful adventure as tomorrow morning we were supposed to be leaving and heading back home. But as for now, the water jets were doing wonders on my back. Even though we were crowded in the jacuzzi, we somehow magically all fell into silence with all the languor and leisure we felt.

Wonwoo and Mingyu were the first to get out, then Seungkwan. Seungcheol and I started to have a one on one talk.

"I'm happy you and Jeonghan are doing good. It's kind of crazy how everyone at the amusement park got paired up so nicely," I said.

He sighed, smiling, as if in a dream, "You have no idea. I think I love him. People throw around that word a lot, but I think this is the real thing, Soonyoung."

I thought of Chan immediately. I pondered if I loved him. Because, like Seungcheol, I try my best to not just throw the word love around. Chan has become such an important part of my life, but love...

"How's Chan?" Seungcheol broke my train of thought, "I'm surprised you haven't talked about him this whole time."

"Only because I know how you all will react at the mention of his name," I chuckled, even though it wasn't that funny.

"Soonyoung, if it makes you happy, it matters. We just like picking on you," Seungcheol sincerely explained.

The corners of my lips tugged upwards at his statement.

"Come on, we have some packing to do," Seungcheol smiled, hopping out of the tub and giving me a hand.

Inside was hectic, but I tried my best to get my things in order before I would end up collapsing on the bed.

In the morning, we loaded up the car and I let Seungkwan have the window seat on the way home. It was hell on my neck, but it felt nice on my heart.

Once I got home, I desperately needed a nap. Tomorrow, Chan would be coming over for the weekend. I couldn't wait. 

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hi im back with a lousy update, the angst is next <3